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Penetrating Writer: Francois Mauriac

Preparing for North Dakota, I am perusing a delightful French novel, ‘Woman of the Pharisees’, intrigued by the author Francois Mauriac.  A twentieth century writer, contemporary to Albert Camus and Elie Wiesel, Mauriac wrote as a devout defending Catholic.  Interestingly, his granddaughter is Anne Wiazemsky, lead in Bresson’s ‘Au Hasard Balthazar’, a film I recently enjoyed at the Cleveland Cinematheque.  Mauriac’s writing style trends toward stark realism, revealing the dark side of human nature, especially poignant when focused upon pious individuals corrupting through their commitment to faith.  He is fearless in exposing those dedicated to the Church based upon the imposition of free will.  Avoiding the stain of negativism and self-righteous judgment, his words present spiritual insight and enlivening lessons for those advanced in the spiritual life, a relief and recognition awaiting those experienced in Catholic socializing.  The characters are recognizable.  I am taking a break from spiritual reading, creating mental space before North Dakota, enthralled by being captivated by a novel.  I have also been listening to Fyodor Dosteyevsky’s ‘Notes From the Underground’ while driving.  A harsh quote from EWTN regarding Mauriac’s sensibility.  Keep in mind, within his sternness, I find a loving and compassionate nature tendered by Mauriac toward his characters.

Mauriac was a man of orthodox faith and constant practice…Yet many of his novels dismayed Catholics with their pessimism, their presentation of vice in all its turpitude, and his continual near obsession with sin. But there was no mistaking the fidelity with which he represented the realities of living and showed that no kind of happiness is possible without God. He displayed the squalor and emptiness of souls from which faith is missing. He exposed the misery and horror prevailing in some families which are outwardly in order.

It has been well said that Mauriac is not a novelist of the human condition, but of the human exile. He does not depict man’s humanity: he depicts his fall, his loss of grace, his deprivation of paradise, his concupiscence, and the sad weight of heredity which lies upon his free will. He showed the power of the flesh and its apparent incompatibility with love for God; he described the final vanity and despair of passion….Mauriac wrote: “Every human love sets up a block against the one Love, and so involves and marks its own destiny.” But the same human souls which he studied with such pitiless pessimism when at their lowest and in their greatest misery, are forced to raise their heads, to look up. His constant purpose was to show the contrary of all that sadness: to demonstrate the value of Christ’s words “Without me you can do nothing” and to do so by means of human decadence.

In the ‘Woman of the Pharisees’, Brigitte Pian, stepmother to the narrator Louis telling the story of his youth, is exposed as a woman preoccupied with religious domination.  Her greatest spiritual exercise is Lording over the destiny and thoughts of others.  A woman demanding recognition as a virtuous, impeccable leader of the Church, she is only happy and expressive in faith when controlling.  She puts much effort, thought, and time into her conniving and manipulating, extending herself into the authority of the Church in order to further personal agendas. She never took a step she could not immediately justify. Within brokenness, she forcefully determines it is her destiny to direct souls. Her words and advice provide grace for those placed under her guidance.  A woman who presents herself as one who cannot be questioned is revealed by Mauriac as one who must be questioned.  The quoted section is brilliant in subtle insight, the unmasking of repugnant spiritual corruption. It is astounding the novel fell into my lap.

…Brigitte Pian had plenty to occupy her.  The days were too short for her happy task of helping a man straighten the tangled skein of his private problems. She felt that she was not wasting her life, that she was to make clear to others what God had planned for them from the beginning of time.  Here, at her very door, was an unrivaled opportunity for her to show her mettle, though she fully realized the dangers involved.  She was perhaps, too satisfied in the part she felt called upon to play.  Not that she was guilty, even in the smallest degree, of self-indulgence: still, at first she did seem to be deriving too much satisfaction from Monsieur Puybaraud’s way of listening to her as to an oracle.  But, alas, his meekness was superficial only.  Very soon it was borne in on Brigitte Pian that she was dealing with a less submissive sheep than she had at first supposed.  “He is a wandering soul,” she told herself in the course of the second week.  She even went so far as to accuse him of deliberately setting his face against the operations of Grace—by which she meant her own advice.

It was Brigitte Pian’s way to drive reluctant souls on to the mountain tops (that was how she phrased it), and she made it her duty to open Monsieur Puybaraud’s eyes to that special trick of the Devil which takes the form of enlisting against a Christian sinner the very sense he has of his own humility.  My master was convinced that previously he had had too high an idea of his own strength when he had felt himself called upon to eschew the normal destiny of mankind.  He felt that it was his duty, while there might yet be time, to find his way back to the beaten track marked out by those who had gone before him and, like them, to take himself a wife, have children, and watch over them as a bird watches over its brood.  But Brigitte Pian knew well that it is sometimes necessary to tear from human souls that mask of spurious humility behind which they take refuge.  She declared, as though she had been the very mouthpiece of God, that Monsieur Puybaraud had been taken from his school work only because, from all eternity, he had been destined for the life of the cloister.  She assured him that he had to face one problem and one alone—at what door should he knock?  To what Order should he make his submission? 

 

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Awake amidst slumber

It is of so great importance to dwell a long time upon the affectionate motions of the will, that the masters of a spiritual life say, that prayer is then in its sovereign degree of perfection, when no longer recurring to meditation, in order to excite in us the love of God, our heart being penetrated with this love it sighs after it, enjoys it and reposes itself therein, as in the only end of its researches and desires.  It is this the spouse teaches us, by her own example in the Canticles, when she says, “I have found him whom my soul loves; I will hold him fast, and will not let him go” and what she imitates to others by these words, “I sleep, but my heart is awake.”  For in perfect prayer, one’s understanding (reasoning/discursive thought) is as if it were asleep, because all its functions are, in a manner suspended; but the will and heart are awake, and melt with tenderness for the heavenly spouse.  His sleep also of the spouse is so agreeable to her beloved, that “he conjures the daughters of Jerusalem not to disturb the repose of his spouse, and not to awake her until she awakes herself.”  So that meditation, and all those other functions of the mind in prayer, are all made use of, and directed to contemplation, and are so many steps to help us to ascend to it.  –St Alphonsus Rodriguez ‘The Practice of Christian & Religious Perfection’

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Adding to identity

I am somebody. I am special, unique and proud. I have an identity that possesses meaning. A Jacob Riis turn of the century photo.

I am somebody. I am special, unique and proud. I have an identity that possesses meaning beyond my daily reality.  A Jacob Riis turn of the century photo.

 

Avoiding a reactionary mindset, comprehending the identifying of lesser ways puts forth the tendency of judgment–serving no deeper purpose such as silence beholds, I cannot help yet notice the self-empowerment the internet provides in promoting identity.  A caution to self, the ease of becoming someone, celebrating myself to excess, is a breeze upon the world wide web.  A Facebook page is something grand in attachment to identity, being something centered in a life ostracized from contemplative humility–the hidden nature Our Holy mother blessed upon her days something unknown.  Of course, others are not called to the contemplative path.  No harm in the conviction to dwell in identity, to complexly have fun, to be someone. What can I be if others do not know I am someone? I have to be someone in the eyes of the world, in the eyes of those I hope to allure.  The promoting of a fascinating dynamic self is not detrimental to salvation.  Another path exists, one bound for deeper dark waters. Can a contemplative waving his hands for attention be heard if he falls amidst the noise of others? Not sure. Of course, a tree is heard when it falls alone in silence.  To be a contemplative is to set upon the interior way, a path of perfection transcending self, focusing upon God.

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Identity

Sometimes I am moved to a new understanding when speaking to a foreigner coming into competency with the English language.  Tanzanian Father Roger used an expression in a homily yesterday that only an individual possessing a foreign tongue would employ.  I found the repeated expression moving.  Describing students embarking upon a new school year, he spoke of opening a new identity.  Young ones returning to school, starting a new year of learning, were opening a new identity, becoming something they were not before the start of the process.

Opening a new identity fits nicely into my recollections upon identity.  Stripping identity, losing self-consciousness in the opening of awareness into perception of the eternal–TRUTH, emptying, escaping the trappings of self-absorption, insecurities and psychological wounds manifesting as delusion, waywardness erupting from frailties and concealed need.  Trying to protect ourselves from the storm of being, the need to cling to identity is only sensual and natural–the way of the world.  To reject identity without proper formation is the insanity of the arrogant fool.  Moving beyond brokenness, the miseries and celebrations of being an individual in a world of sensual over satiation, how can I reject the focus of outward perception, concentrating energy and efforts upon the interior world of the contemplative?

Random words heard recently, existential and dreamy in vision, poignant in masquerading perception.

I have been going on like that for a long time–twenty years….I was a spiteful official. I was rude and took pleasure in being so….A poor jest, but I will not scratch it out. I wrote it thinking it would sound very witty; but now that I have seen myself that I only wanted to show off in a despicable way, I will not scratch it out on purpose…When petitioners used to come for information to the table at which I sat, I used to grind my teeth at them, and felt intense enjoyment when I succeeded in making anybody unhappy. I almost did succeed. For the most part they were all timid people–of course, they were petitioners. But of the uppish ones there was one officer in particular I could not endure. He simply would not be humble, and clanked his sword in a disgusting way. I carried on a feud with him for eighteen months over that sword. At last I got the better of him. He left off clanking it. That happened in my youth, though…But do you know, gentlemen, what was the chief point about my spite? Why, the whole point, the real sting of it lay in the fact that continually, even in the moment of the acutest spleen, I was inwardly conscious with shame that I was not only not a spiteful but not even an embittered man, that I was simply scaring sparrows at random and amusing myself by it….I should grind my teeth at myself afterwards and lie awake at night with shame for months after. That was my way….I was lying when I said just now that I was a spiteful official. I was lying from spite. I was simply amusing myself with the petitioners and with the officer, and in reality I never could become spiteful. I was conscious every moment in myself of many, very many elements absolutely opposite to that. I felt them positively swarming in me, these opposite elements. I knew that they had been swarming in me all my life and craving some outlet…but I would not let them…purposely would not let them come out. They tormented me till I was ashamed: they drove me to convulsions and–sickened me, at last, how they sickened me! Now, are not you fancying, gentlemen, that I am expressing remorse for something now, that I am asking your forgiveness for something? I am sure you are fancying that … However, I assure you I do not care if you are….Fyodor Dostoevsky ‘Notes From the Underground’.

The things I do away from contemplation affect the quality of my contemplation.  I cannot be drained by the world, without draining my contemplative efforts.  I have been severely drained for weeks.  My mind cannot be preoccupied, overwhelmed by emotion, intellectualizing, and imagination.  

Do not be conformed to this world but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that you may prove what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.  (Romans 12)

Opening a new identity, I embrace all the change washing over my life.  It is necessary.  A transformation is occuring. Friday, I fly out at five in the morning for North Dakota.  I put aside speculation, relaxing into a retreat mentality, pleased to take my camera.  It will be a quiet week of reflection and prayer at a remote locale.  Beyond that I pray for the Holy Spirit to shower gifts.  Wisdom.  Understanding.  Counsel.  Fortitude.  Knowledge.  Piety (reverence).  Fear of the Lord (wonder/awe).  Grounded within basics, employing prayer and silence, may the Cardinal virtues: Prudence.  Justice.  Temperance.  Courage.  Become stalwarts of my arsenal.  Lord, I am tired.  I offer my life and my will to be of service to You.  Open my eyes so that I may see eternal. 

From now on, therefore, we regard no one from a human point of view; even though we once regarded Christ from a human point of view, we regard him thus no longer.  Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has passed away, behold, the new has come.  All this is from God, who through Christ reconciled us to himself and gave us the ministry of reconciliation; 

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George an Amtrack ticket is $50 round trip.  Nothing.  That is the way to go.  Possibly the weekend of my return from North Dakota–12th and 13th we can arraign everything.  It will be nice, apart of a new beginning the 14th.  During the morning and early afternoon, I have obligations with the Hospice of Western Reserve for that weekend, attending qualifying training for volunteer status.  However that should only prove interesting for you. You can use my bicycle to explore Coventry, University Circle, and Cleveland Heights on your own.  An adventurer, I am positive you will reveal an adventure.  I can supply information allowing you to prep before the visit.  That fits in with the Cleveland Cinematheque film schedule as a huge premiere occurs Saturday the 12th, the opening of Horse Money from Portugal.  Intriguingly apropos.  If you want to prep for the film, immersing yourself within Portuguese culture, explore ‘Mysteries of Lisbon’, an epic exploration of identity in medieval Portugal.

 

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Thy Will Be Done

…the Bride in the Songs says: “The King brought me” (or “put me”, I think the words are) “into the cellar of wine.” It does not say that she went. It also says that she was wandering about in all directions seeking her Beloved. This, as I understand it, is the cellar where the Lord is pleased to put us, when He wills and as He wills. But we cannot enter by any efforts of our own; His Majesty must put us right into the centre of our soul, and must enter there Himself; and, in order that He may the better show us His wonders, it is His pleasure that our will, which has entirely surrendered itself to Him, should have no part in this. Nor does He desire the door of the faculties and senses, which are all asleep, to be opened to Him; He will come into the centre of the soul without using a door, as He did when He came in to His disciples, and said Pax vobis,and when He left the sepulchre without removing the stone. –St Teresa of Avila ‘Interior Castle’

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Discernment

Brother in anticipation of the visit, understanding the severity of discernment, expressing an opinion, I thought I would comment on the statement that it takes just one day to understand your life.  Humbly and not claiming thorough knowledge, I feel I possess decent insight into the monastic life.  Why I feel a week, if not longer, is essential, is that I am confident I must comprehend the dynamics of your specific community.  I am positive I made a mistake with the Franciscan order in Fort Wayne by assuming I possessed a calling so therefore any religious community would allow me to flourish.  Older, I have learned that God rarely works in obvious magical ways.  Things do not come easy for me.  I have found the need for diligent patience, surrender, prayer, counsel, and solitary contemplation in order to allow proper discernment to align with the deepest of divine intent.  I am praying mindfully regarding the week visit.  I hope you do not find this email overbearing.  You will discover in person I am quiet, rarely speaking.  I am not intent upon making an impression.  I do not push my opinions, nor personal agendas.

May the Lord give you His peace.
–Greeting of St Francis

Oh great and glorious God,
Enlighten the darkness of my heart,
Give to me:
True faith,

Certain hope,
And perfect charity,
So that I may carry out
Your holy and true commandments.

–St Francis prayer before the cross of St Damiano

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