Monthly Archives: October 2015

Healthy good fruit

Life is good, the active life a sensation of holiness when kept busy, awake in spirit, daily mass and adoration sustaining. The new job is incredible on many levels. The maintenance department excels. The work is furious, fifty die casting machines running three shifts five to seven days a week. However the machines are basically all the same, and plus there are men fixing them who have been there since the plant opened in 1992. That is twenty years of working on the same machine, supported by a company that promotes quality, supplying extensive training. The maintenance department knows how to take care of their die casting machines, while functioning daily within adult communication and teamwork, firmly grounded in ethics and professionalism. God guided me into a stellar employment situation. This is truly a company one retires handsomely from. The entire second shift crew routinely shares in a community meal on Fridays, everyone pitching in money, while the die repair maintenance and machining department organizes the dispensing. We enjoyed an incredible meal of fried chicken, country fries, homemade potato salad, and dinner rolls in abundance today. I do not know where the food came from, although I will find out. The quality was amazing and so much fun for everyone to come together around tables in a celebration of dining. This is a friendly bunch, while also not too inquisitive. I enjoy my socializing, while also my distance. I read during lunch, keeping casual conversation to a minimum, while being fully present for coworkers, a brother to my fellow laborers. Speaking of reading, my time to digest words has been reduced with a work schedule demanding effort. I just purchased a wonderful grocery bag filled with books, all historical/religious, from the Cleveland library for four dollars, including a high dollar large collector’s photo assemblage detailing Vatican City. I also realized a Henry Suso book I ordered over a month ago never arrived, inquisitively emailing the seller, who assures me they will look into matters. I will have to be organized in order to maintain a healthy influx of contemplative nurturing, reading as much as possible before the Eucharist.

Tomorrow is the second and final eight hour training session with the Hospice of the Western Reserve. I am excited,  I made a wonderful rotini pasta salad with Bulgarian feta cheese to share with others, humbled to take part, proud to be one amongst many.  I am astonished I may start working with patients this week. Today, the second of the month, Tilma, the Catholic book and gift store in Berea hosted the praying of three mysteries of the Rosary for the conversion of the world. A prayer participant made the suggestion to concentrate upon the Divine Mercy chaplet during vigil watch, sitting with patients enduring final moments. During the reciting of the Rosary, focused upon a Divine Mercy image of Christ, the reality of my volunteering effort swept over me, washing me with humility, forcing me to question if I was really ready for such solemn activity. Life seemed mammoth, immense in magnitude and mystery. I could only cling to my Rosary beads, verbalizing prayers, understanding there was no turning back. There was no choice, thus no reason to fear. Jesus I trust in You. I am so intent upon giving back a hunger burns within my soul. I am ready for a profound contemplatively active life.

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God’s fool

More Blessed Charles de Foucauld. I love this man. I imagine Our Holy Mother smiling upon his deeds, wondering daily what in the world will he be up to today, and what will he get himself into.

The bizarre plans he would hatch the following year: he would buy the Mount of Beatitudes for the Franciscans and build there a sanctuary in which he and possibly one other priest would spend their lives and worship. ‘There on the mountain’, he explained, ‘lonely, isolated, among hostile Arabs I shall need every instant a firm faith; here at the monastery, at Nazareth, on the contrary, I lack nothing. Therefore it is there that my faith will get more exercise…Here, face to face with myself, I am superior to my condition; there as a priest, ignorant and incapable, I shall be profoundly below it.’ The idea that the Mount of Beatitudes might be bought and sold like any other piece of property may seem extraordinary today. But there it was, on the market like any other piece of land, and it was being offered at 13,000 francs. Foucauld immediately wrote to his family for the money. His plan had flaws even if he bought the land and built the sanctuary, the Franciscans could not afford to maintain it; nor could they guarantee to supply him with a spare priest; and there was no certainty that the site he wanted to buy was indeed the Mount of Beatitudes. Foucauld was undeterred. ‘Offering myself in a strange habit, asking to live a particular kind of life, to establish a tabernacle in a holy place whose authenticity is doubtful, I shall be, from the first day, the object of every mockery, rebuff and contradiction. Alone in a desert, with a native Christian, who will be absolutely essential, in the midst of savage and hostile populations, I shall find more opportunity to exercise my courage. As an afterthought, he mentioned that Mount might be a good place to start his new order.

‘I am horrified by your projects.’ Huvelin (Foucauld’s spiritual director) replied. –Fergus Fleming ‘The Sword and the Cross: Two Men and an Empire of Sand’

Words of Foucauld describing how he desired others to witness him as a contemplative: “If such is the servant, what must the Master be like?”

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One of God’s blessed hilarious children

Once again the delightfully charming antics and events in the life of Charles de Foucauld brought a spiritual smile to my heart.  This French man could definitely be the hilarious younger brother of the Blessed Henry Suso.  I cannot say how much he reminds me of a quirky wonderful holy Catholic Lebanese  man from Toledo, Jim Saad.  I roared with laughter when reading the following:

Foucauld’s idea had been that he would ‘live there (Poor Clare community in Nazareth) without anyone knowing who I was, as the workman living by his daily labours’.  Unfortunately, this was not how things turned out.  His labours’ costume, which consisted of turban sandals and blue cotton pajamas wrapped around with a wide leather belt from which hung an outsize rosary, made him an object of instant curiosity.  Gratifyingly, he was able to horrify a young European woman: ‘I am so scared of vermin’, she said to her husband as Foucauld drew near.  The Poor Clares soon discovered who this curiously dressed man really was.  And it became rapidly apparent that his laboring skills were minimal: having witnessed his attempts at wall-building, carpentry, and gardening, the Poor Clares assigned him to sweeping and fetching the mail.  His own description of life in Nazareth hardly conformed to any recognizable image of labor: ‘very often I draw little pictures for the sisters.  If there are any small jobs I do them, but this is rare; generally I spend the whole day doing little things in my room.’  Nevertheless, he believed he had broken successfully into a working man’s existence.  He wrote triumphantly of how he had arrived ‘without any papers but my passport, and on the sixth day I found that only a means of earning my living but also earning it under just the conditions I had been dreaming of for so many years; it seemed as though this place was waiting for me, and indeed it was waiting for me, for nothing happens by chance, and everything that happens has been prepared by God; I am a servant, the domestic, the valet, of a poor religious community.’

The Poor Clares treated him with a benevolent respect.  They did not demur when he turned down their offer of accommodations, opting instead to sleep in a small tool shed overlooking a paddock.  Nor did they insist, beyond a delicate suggestion that a bowl of soup might be fortifying, that he except any more than the dried bread, twice a day, which he asked as his wage.  They maintained his own pretense that he was a simple nobody and did not mind when he seemed unable to do anything beyond the most trivial chores.  There were occasions, however, when outsiders were surprised by Foucauld’s behavior.  A visiting bishop became intolerant at his continual fawning and demanded he be sent back to work; another was amazed at his attempts to cut his own hair and assumed he had ringworm; a third was bewildered when, on asking why he looked so happy, he received the answer that children had thrown stones at him in the street.  His confessor, the only person who saw him on a regular basis other than the Poor Clares, remarked that ‘He is a very good boy, but not one of the most intelligent.’

If Foucauld seemed unintelligent it was probably because his confessor judged him by conventional standards.  Foucauld was perfectly rational, he could make incisive political comments when he felt like it, and he retained enough military expertise for the Poor Clares to give him a shot gun to defend their hen-run.  But he was not interested in rationality, politics or guns.  His self-declared aim was ‘a deeper dispossession and a greater lowliness so that I might be still more like Jesus.’  –Fergus Fleming ‘The Sword and the Cross: Two Men and an Empire of Sand’

Charles de Foucauld

Charles de Foucauld

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