There was something more to Mr Nagle’s Thomas Merton performance last night, a message from God I decipher. The St Ignatius group celebrating an annual awards ceremony was a national recovery based institution, focusing upon homelessness, removing individuals from the streets by assisting them with substance abuse through the AA twelve step program and spiritual retreats. A man and a woman told their stories of recovery, focusing upon finding God. I was moved by their stories. This is the second time in less than two weeks that I have become scattered, a nervous wreck. Friday meeting with Dr Nichta, he said, ‘Jim, you realize you are talking a mile a minute, and you are all over the place? I cannot keep up with you’. I scheduled an appointment for next Friday. I will continue to see him. Ann, I owe you an apology. I focused on you. Work has me stressed out, and I turned my anxiety upon you. I want your voice back in my life, assist me through my probationary, discernment period, at work please. The Hospice starts this week, and I am going to look into at least one AA meeting a week. My session with Dr Nicola demonstrated I need people to unload upon, my social world needs expanded, an outlet focused upon recovery and releasing. There is not a chance in Hell, I will drink, yet last night and recent experience clearly shows there is more to recovery than not drinking. Please except my apology, consider my plea. I would appreciate your voice to return as an influence. Consider matters deeply as you always do. I am off at eleven.