Monthly Archives: January 2017

An epic ending

“I see that child who lay upon her bosom and who bore my name, a man winning his way up in that path of life which once was mine. I see him winning it so well, that my name is made illustrious there by the light of his. I see the blots I threw upon it, faded away. I see him, fore-most of just judges and honoured men, bringing a boy of my name, with a forehead that I know and golden hair, to this place—then fair to look upon, with not a trace of this day’s disfigurement—and I hear him tell the child my story, with a tender and a faltering voice.

“It is a far, far better thing that I do, than I have ever done; it is a far, far better rest that I go to than I have ever known.” –Charles Dickens ‘A Tale of Two Cities’

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Daily reading: Enter into His rest

Let us be on our guard
While the promise of entering into his rest remains,
That none of you seem to have failed.
For in fact we have received the Good News just as our ancestors did.
But the word that they heard did not profit them,
For they were not united in faith with those who listened.
For we who believed enter into that rest,
Just as he has said:

As I swore in my wrath,
“They shall not enter into my rest,”

And yet his works were accomplished
At the foundation of the world.
For he has spoken somewhere about the seventh day in this manner,
And God rested on the seventh day from all his works;
And again, in the previously mentioned place,
They shall not enter into my rest.

Therefore, let us strive to enter into that rest,
So that no one may fall after the same example of disobedience

Hebrews chapter 4

Christ Child asleep on a cross. Orazio Gentileschi (1563 – 1639, Italian)

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Father Robert Hugh Benson

PLEAD THOU MY CAUSE!

I

ATTRITION

Plead Thou my cause, else who will plead for me,
My Kingly Advocate before the Throne?
Trembling I stand; guilty, ashamed, alone,
Girt only by my own iniquity,
Cried down by sins that fain would silence Thee,
Some coming after, some to judgment gone.
What I have done, what I have left undone,
Beckon me out to deathless misery.

The Court is set, and will not let me go;
The heavy books are black with blotted shame.
I cannot answer; none can plead but Thou.
I knew not what I did in sinning so;
Hell hungers for me; see, the worm, the flame
Nought but Love’s eloquence can save me now.

PLEAD THOU MY CAUSE!

II

CONTRITION

Plead Thou my cause; yet let me bear the pain,
Lord, Who hast done so much to ransom me,
Now that I know how I have wounded Thee,
And crucified Thee, Prince of Life, again.
Yea, let me suffer; Thou wilt not disdain
To let me hang beside Thee on the Tree
And taste Thy bitter Cup of agony.
Let it not be that Thou hast died in vain.

Ah, awful Face of Love, bruised by my hand,
Turn to me, pierce me with Thine eyes of flame,
And give, me deeper knowledge of my sin.
So let me grieve and, when I understand
How great my guilt, my ruin, and my shame,
Open Thy Sacred Heart and let me in!

Beautiful lyrical poems of being human, surrender and weakness.  Important to note though that Father Benson wrote this poem before 1903, before his conversion to Catholicism.  A son of the Archbishop of Canterbury, leader of the Church of England, and a member of a highly respected academic family, his conversion was widely publicized and discussed.  I wonder if after his conversion to Catholicism, he would have wrote the first line: ‘Plead Thou my cause, else who will plead for me’.  Brought into the teaching and ways of Catholicism, would he have recognized the advocacy of Our Holy Mother?  I am positive a brilliant scholar, one trending more toward prayer and mysticism, would easily become aware of Our Holy Mother’s power in pleading our case to Her Son.

Mary Undoer of Knots

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Ordinary prayer

Eucharist witnessing,
Whispering softly ten times,
Silence and bead counting.

I am a leper.
I am an outcast.
Heal me Lord.

I am a leper.
I am an outcast.
Heal me Lord.

I am a leper.
I am an outcast.
Heal me Lord.

I am a leper.
I am an outcast.
Heal me Lord.

I am a leper.
I am an outcast.
Heal me Lord.

I am a leper.
I am an outcast.
Heal me Lord.

I am a leper.
I am an outcast.
Heal me Lord.

I am a leper.
I am an outcast.
Heal me Lord.

I am a leper.
I am an outcast.
Heal me Lord.

I am a leper.
I am an outcast.
Heal me Lord.

A leper came to him and kneeling down begged him and said,
“If you wish, you can make me clean.”
Moved with pity, he stretched out his hand,
touched the leper, and said to him,
“I do will it. Be made clean.”

Gospel of Mark

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Fiction on into poetry

But, the glorious sun, rising, seemed to strike those words, that burden of the night, straight and warm to his heart in its long bright rays.  And looking along them, with reverently shaded eyes, a bridge of light appeared to span the air between him and the sun, while the river sparkled under it.

The strong tide, so swift, so deep, and certain, was like a congenial friend, in the morning stillness.  He walked by the stream, far from the houses, and in the light and warmth of the sun fell asleep on the bank.  When he awoke and was afoot again, he lingered there yet a little longer, watching an eddy that turned and turned purposeless, until the stream absorbed it, and carried it on to the sea—”Like me.”

A trading-boat, with a sail of the softened color of a dead leaf, then glided into his view, floated by him, and died away.  As its silent track in the water disappeared, the prayer that had broken up out of his heart for a merciful consideration of all his poor blindness and errors, ended in the words, “I am the resurrection and the life.”   –Charles Dickens “A Tale of Two Cities”

Christ Triumphant

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The Teresian Contemplative

She moves in tumult; round her lies
The silence of the world of grace;
The twilight of our mysteries
Shines like high noonday on her face;
Our piteous guesses, dim with fears,
She touches, handles, sees, and hears.

In her all longings mix and meet;
Dumb souls through her are eloquent;
She feels the world beneath her feet
Thrill in a passionate intent;
Through her our tides and feelings roll
And find their God within her soul.

Her faith and the awful Face of God
Brightens and blinds with utter light;
Her footsteps fall where late He trod;
She sinks in roaring voids of night;
Cries to her Lord in black despair,
And knows, yet knows not, He is there.

A willing sacrifice she takes
The burden of our fall within;
Holy she stands; while on her breaks
The lightning of the wrath of sin;
She drinks her Savior’s cup of pain,
And, one with Jesus, thirsts again.

Robert Hugh Benson

The world depicted in ‘Lord of the World’ (Benson’s novel) is one where creeping secularism and Godless humanism have triumphed over religion and traditional morality. It is a world where philosophical relativism has triumphed over objectivity; a world where, in the name of tolerance, religious doctrine is not tolerated. It is a world where euthanasia is practiced widely and religion hardly practiced at all. The lord of this nightmare world is a benign-looking politician intent on power in the name of “peace,” and intent on the destruction of religion in the name of “truth.” In such a world, only a small and shrinking Church stands resolutely against the demonic “Lord of the World.”  Quote from http://www.catholicauthors.com/benson.html

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Introspection while looking out

Restructuring settles further, within the start of a new year. I attended noon mass at Holy Rosary in Little Italy, enjoying strombolis from Presti’s next door, proceeding to drive and eat, bound for St. Paul Shrine and Adoration prayer before work.  A noisy one chatters his way into my life, at service as a contractor, ever present as a friend.  The high efficiency furnace he installed performs remarkably.  Beyond warmth, it provides unexpected air movement, pleasingly presenting a freshness to the home.  Internally, I feel as if a bomb were detonated, blasting asunder a sense of normalcy.  Everything is changing.  Shell-shocked, a sense of calm prevails, a whisper imploring for finality, a further interior quieting.  No more expectations.  No more schemes.  Last night was one of intense dreams, vivid and intimate, the rescuer calling throughout the night. I cannot bear the immensity.  The complexities hurt too much.  The significant other places distance and depth, alone examining in introspect, a mirror upon one’s own imperfection.  Honest, open, and willing; potentialities remain alluringly intact.  Vermont lingers lovingly, retirement and peace, yet circumstance cannot provide until all resolution transpires, within the lack of clarity, patience exists, a heart grows fuller, sorrow and wonder prevail, prayer remains a launching pad, tears provide the cleansing of pride, silence the solution to a wicked tongue.  Life continues.

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