Gratefully, this quote struck me. Maybe throughtout life, radical change was not the answer. Radical change may have been necessary, however trust, acceptance, and a slow process of growing in love with Jesus were my only means of employment.

Do not despair, thinking that you cannot change yourself after so many years. Simply enter into the presence of Jesus as you are and ask him to give you a fearless heart where he can be with you. YOU cannot make yourself different. Jesus came to give you a new heart, a new spirit, a new mind, and a new body. Let him transform you by his love and so enable you to receive his affection in your whole being. —Quote from Henri Nouwen’s book, The Inner Voice of Love.