Monthly Archives: August 2020

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Enough

For many days I have sat tired and lonely, enduring alone,
No messages come, nothing new exchanged, nothing,
Nothing new under the sun, NO new normal, nothing,
World without end, breathing remains, still no change,
As it was in the beginning, it is now, and ever shall be,
Seated, sword in hand, slicing away random thoughts,
Steady candle burn, glass hurricane cylinder, set apart,
Hands enfolded, fingers pointed, bitter winds distorted,
Swirls surround, expansion protected, gracefully distended,
Witness others breathing fire, spitting blood, discord,
Chaotic reactive dancing, screaming riots, daily disease, events,
Spiritual turmoil posing as political strife, desperate demands,
You must make a choice, foolish commands, repeated warnings,
For many days I have sat tired and lonely, enduring alone,
Seated, sword in hand, slicing away random thoughts,
Abandoning into abandonment,
Detaching into a deeper detachment,
Walking slowly into unfathomable depths, icy waters lose their chill,
No desire, nowhere else to go, open arms encompassing,
Gathering those loved into a beating heart, multifold, accord,
I have been naked since I was born into blood, born into fear,
Necessary distance to be alone, quieting fears, quieting all,
Necessary distance, self-awareness in the eyes of God’s love.

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Theotokos

The humble man, says St Thomas, is amazed when any one speaks well of him, and there is nothing that astonishes him more than to hear himself praised. Thus the Blessed Virgin, when she heard from the Archangel Gabriel that she was to become the Mother Of God, had such a lowly opinion of herself that she marveled greatly that she should be exalted to such an eminent dignity…thus, to Mary’s saying, ‘How shall this be?’ the angel brings forward a proof, not to take away her belief but rather to dispel her wonder.” –”Humility of Heart” by Capuchin Gaetano (Cajetan) Maria da Bergamo

And in the sixth month, the angel Gabriel was sent from God into a city of Galilee, called Nazareth, To a virgin espoused to a man whose name was Joseph, of the house of David; and the virgin’s name was Mary. And the angel being come in, said unto her: Hail, full of grace, the Lord is with thee: blessed art thou among women. Who having heard, was troubled at his saying, and thought with herself what manner of salutation this should be. And the angel said to her: Fear not, Mary, for thou hast found grace with God.  –Gospel of Luke Chapter 1

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Humility Prayer

O Jesus, meek and humble of heart, hear me.
From the desire of being esteemed, deliver me, Jesus.
From the desire Of being loved, deliver me, Jesus.
From the desire Of being extolled, deliver me. Jesus.
From the desire of being honored. deliver me. Jesus.
From the desire of being praised, deliver me, Jesus.
From the desire of being preferred to others, deliver me. Jesus.
From the desire of being consulted, deliver me, Jesus.
From the desire of being approved, deliver me, Jesus.
From the fear Of being humiliated, deliver me. Jesus.
From the fear Of being despised. deliver me, Jesus.
From the fear of suffering rebukes, deliver me. Jesus.
From the fear of being calumniated, deliver me. Jesus.
From the fear of being forgotten, deliver me. Jesus.
From the fear of being ridiculed, deliver me, Jesus.
From the fear Of being wronged, deliver me, Jesus.
From the fear of being suspected, deliver me. Jesus.

That others may be loved more than I,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That Others may be esteemed more than I,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That in the opinion of the world, others may increase and I may decrease,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may be chosen and I set aside,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may be praised and I unnoticed,
Jesus. grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may be preferred to me in everything,
Jesus, gram me the grace to desire it.
That others may become holier than I, provided that I become as holy as I should,
Jesus. grant me the grace to desire it.

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Unidentified words

The dove descending
Breaks the air with flame
Incandescent terror
Of which the tongues declare
The one discharge from sin and error.
The only hope, or else despair
Lies in the choice of pyre
To be redeemed from fire by fire.

Who then devised the torment?
Love.

Love is the unfamiliar name
Behind the hands that wove
The intolerable shirt of flame
Which human power cannot remove.
We only live, only suspire
Consumed by either fire or fire.

Organizing my notepad app on my phone, I came across these words and liked them–not sure of the author.

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Deeper reflection upon humility

There are also two types of temptations: those that come to us through the wickedness of the evil one and those which we go in search of ourselves in our own weakness and malice, but there is no better safeguard against either than humility. Humility causes the evil one to flee because he cannot face the humble on account of his great pride, and it causes every temptation to vanish suddenly because there can be no temptation without a touch of pride.

Temptations arise against purity or against faith or any other virtue, but we can easily overcome them if we humble ourselves in our hearts and say: “Lord, I deserve these terrible temptations as a punishment for my pride, and if Thou comest not to my help, I shall surely fall. I feel my weakness, and that I can do no good of myself. Help me!”

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As for those Other temptations there must certainly be presumption on our part when we seek them of our own accord and place ourselves in dangerous occasions of sin. He who is humble knows his own weakness; and, knowing it, fears to place himself in danger; and because he fears it, he flees from it. He who is humble trusts implicitly in the help of divine grace, on those involuntary occasions he may encounter, but he never presumes upon the help of divine grace on those occasions which he has sought himself.

Let us be humble and humility will teach us to fear and avoid all dangerous occasions. In the lives of the saints we read how careful they were to avoid familiar intercourse with women; and also, in the lives of saintly women how equally cautious they were to avoid familiarity with men. Why did they fear so much, since they already had so many penances and prayers with which to defend themselves against temptation? The reason is that they were humble and distrusted the weakness of human nature without presuming on grace; and thus, their humility was the mans by which they kept their purity unsullied. –”Humility of Heart” by Capuchin Gaetano (Cajetan) Maria da Bergamo

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