This is an email I sent to Father Roger last night. I post it with meaning, confident I betray no confidentiality or trust. I really want to work with him.
Father Roger I would like you to consider spiritually directing my efforts as I prepare to work with the Hospice of the Western Reserve. I humbly ask you to act as my spiritual director. I have considered the matter deeply. Praying and observing. I am so honored God has called me to work with terminally ill patients. There is a part of me overwhelmed, feeling inferior, yet I take inspiration in the Gospel reading from Sunday mass: “For human beings it is impossible, but not for God. All things are possible for God.” I am convinced God is demanding service, an effort to contribute. I am single and alone, willing to volunteer my time, offering everything I have in assisting others encounter death. The Hospice of the Western Reserve is an elite medical organization. Their training is impressive. I now wait upon my paperwork to be processed. I expect a call this week to conduct a final one-on-one interview as the Hospice of the Western Reserve determines how to utilize my skills. I find it spiritually intriguing, beneficial, to place myself in obedience to their ways and means. Ann informs me they are the best Hospice organization in the nation. I am convinced we grow spiritually when we place ourselves in servitude. This volunteer effort equates to sanctity, a giving back. I credit St Paul Shrine for providing graces, supplying a splendid spiritual home. The presence of the Eucharist strengthens my every effort. I have become spiritually strong, and now God calls me into action, insisting obedience, that I place myself under the direction of the Hospice. It all makes sense. I am honored you wrote the letter of reference for me. I want St Paul Shrine to embolden my faith, hope, and charity. The Eucharist leading the way. I wait upon final word from the Hospice. Once I am given a patient to work with I would like to offer their name to Mother Superior, imploring the Poor Clares to assist my efforts through prayer. I would like the sisters to know I am humbly attempting to assist my brothers and sisters in Christ face the severe challenge of death. I want to bring them to mass with me. However it is not what I want that matters. I must allow God and the patient to determine matters. For now I just ask you to pray for me, and then in person we can discuss how to precede forward. I will ask very little of your time. Let me hear from the Hospice and then we can be clearer in direction. Speaking of the passing of life, I would like to acknowledge the passing of Sister Maria of the Eucharist, offering condolences.
God bless you and may the Lord give all Franciscans and Poor Clares His peace.
Thy will be done!
