During mass today, an awareness struck. Let’s see what happens. I felt positive God is going to give me a child to work with. I did not consider such a situation, anticipating elderly people to care for. The thought of a child even hurt, deeply penetrating. I have always felt gifted with children. The more I reflected the more I sensed a reality. God was going to shatter my heart. Knowing how attached I get to children, He was going to assign me to a child. Of course me being me–no Mary, I threatened Him, demanding if He breaks my heart so deeply He better be with me. I did not enter this agreement considering children a part of death. That was not a part of my romantic heroic thinking. I am not sure I could handle assisting a child through so much, which only made me realize that was why God would ask. Let’s see what happens.