Contemplation

Corpus Christi comes, a parade out into the streets

Solemn feast of Corpus Chrsiti, the Church providing, a procession to celebrate and share in edifying community. As we trudge the awesome steps toward the Trinity, let love grow and reign supreme in our hearts. Serious in devotion, we become sensitive. Healing, we become vulnerable. Brutally honest, we expose ourselves. Thirsting for God, we appear feeble. Learning to love, we become tender. Growing in the spirit, we surrender. Trusting in God, we resort to tears and prayers. To the worldly, we seem weak, one who can be easily dominated, one who can be defeated with impunity. May we exercise appropriate care in sheltering ourselves from the worldly, from those playing at faith like teenagers. Thrill-seekers and the self-consumed can inflicted horrible damage to those accurately purifying upon the contemplative path of Calvary. God is good and providing, allowing everything to happen as it should. We do not seek victory focusing our eyes upon the Cross. From struggle may we grow stronger, the Eucharist (Corpus Christi) and our prayer life always the source of strengthening. Our love multiplying the consequence of advancing. Lord have mercy upon us all.

Here is a commanding consideration, a thought to ponder, from the writings of Saint Alphonosus Rodriguez.

But he suffered not only in His body, but in His soul also, and after a manner far more painful. For, notwithstanding human nature was in Him united to the divine person, yet it hindered him not from feeling the indignity of His sufferings in as lively a manner as if this union had not been at all. Moreover, to render this pain the greater, he was deprived of all consolation; which was the reason that he cried out upon the Cross: ‘My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?’ The holy martyrs were solaced in their torments by comforts from heaven, which made them suffer all things; not only with courage, but even with joy; but Jesus Christ, in order to suffer the more for the love of us, vouchsafe, as to His sacred humanity, to be deprived of all sorts of comforts both of heaven and earth, and not only forsaken by His disciples and friends, but even by His eternal Father. ‘I am become like a man without help or succor’, and yet this man was the only one who ‘was free amongst the dead’…the only one who was free from sin, and consequently ought to have been free from all pain.

The thought brings tears. Jesus absolutely abandoned upon the cross by the Father and Holy Spirit. All Divine consolation stripped, all humanely assistance fleeing, he humanely suffered upon the cross. Nailed to the cross, beaten, humiliated, His only resource was His humanity. Enduring, proving as a man He was a worthy member of the Trinity, His broken and bruised heart magnified love and forgiveness. In His humanity, Our Lord was triumphant. He won the victory for us as one of us. The man Jesus attained eternal salvation for all. He was not playing a game upon the Cross, cleverly allowing the omnipotence of the Trinity to tolerate the nonsense of silly humans being in some staged theatrical drama play. He went through everything vulnerable, on His own, abandoned, experiencing immense pain and consternation as a common man. The Son proved Himself, made His Father and the Holy Spirit proud, joining in unification, the formation of the eternal Trinity. The Father must be immensely proud of His Son. How could He not celebrate and honor His mother, standing weeping her pierced heart out, tears cascading at the foot of the Cross  The beloved apostle John supporting her, contemplatives setting the stage for ages to come.. May we in our humanity endure and hold to His example, always placing Him before us as the one we conduct our actions and thoughts for. The aim of our bent bows upon the Cross.

To set the table for the feast today, one more time Anima Christi:

Soul of Christ, sanctify me
Body of Christ, save me
Blood of Christ, inebriate me
Water from the side of Christ, wash me
Passion of Christ, strengthen me
O good Jesus, hear me
Within Thy wounds hide me
Separated from Thee let me never be
From the malicious enemy defend me
In the hour of my death call me
And bid me come unto Thee
That I may praise Thee with Thy saints
Forever and ever
Amen

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Psychological evaluation leading to contemplative fervor

Dr. Nichta visit, always an insightful day. We expanded upon the idea of personality types, the good and bad sides. I appreciate how he says a devoted gone bad is an overly dependent person. If not properly nurtured, utilized, or understood a devoted personality, one prone to loyalty, charity, and caregiving devolves into a dependent, demanding person. For myself he stressed a religiously oriented prayerful man becomes an alcoholic or a fearful man of seething anger and resentments. Thoughts for reflection, the other personality types and their associated disorder. It is not so important to define and limit, as if we are all one and nothing of the others. The subject is useful on the contemplative level in that any and all types of psychological understanding and healing produces greater clarity upon the contemplative level. A sound emotional, properly identifying, pleasant disposition man is a more effective prayerful man.

Style (tendency)      Disorder

Conscientious         Obsessive-Compulsive
Self-confident          Narcissistic
Vigilant                   Paranoid
Mercurial                 Borderline
Leisurely                 Passive-aggressive
Sensitive                Avoidant
Idiosyncratic           Schizotypal
Adventurous           Antisocial
Self-sacrificing        Self-defeating
Aggressive             Sadistic
Serious                  Depressive

We also explored the idea of other’s perceptions, stressing the importance of understanding that people are very insightful regarding comprehension of the truth about people and situations. If we are a prayerful, sincere man others see it. If the Holy Spirit fills us people recognize the matter, even if not properly identifying. I love the earlier scriptural quote on Saul and David. Saul becomes dependent upon the soothing effect of David’s music without clearly identifying it is the spirit he lacks that attracts him. His rebellion and abandoning of God produces a condition treatable for another man of God. Expanding beyond one lost and one filled, two people coming together attuned to the Holy Spirit produce even greater fruit. I wish others could witness Dr. Nichta and myself talking. Disregarding egotistical concerns or the idea that two men can accomplish what God cannot do on his own, it is the event of observing two men on fire with the Lord advancing one in the progress of understanding himself, an educated psychologically wise man of God supporting and nurturing another man of God growing in the Holy Spirit. God is truly good and providing.

Daily mass readings covering the Old Testament story of Tobit. I love the story. The idea of Raphael being the archangel of guidance I adore. Consumed with my devoted personality type, the idea of loving on a spiritual and natural level, I am moved by the experience of Tobiah and Sarah.

Tobiah arose from bed and said to his wife,“My love, get up. Let us pray and beg our Lord to have mercy on us and to grant us deliverance. She got up, and they started to pray and beg that deliverance might be theirs. And they began to say: “Blessed are you, O God of our fathers, praised be your name forever and ever. Let the heavens and all your creation praise you forever. You made Adam and you gave him his wife Eve to be his help and support; and from these two the human race descended. You said, ‘It is not good for the man to be alone; let us make him a partner like himself.’ Now, Lord, you know that I take this wife of mine not because of lust, but for a noble purpose. Call down your mercy on me and on her, and allow us to live together to a happy old age.” They said together, “Amen, amen,” and went to bed for the night.

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The Holy Spirit working through others, unknowingly longing only for God.

“Arise, anoint him; for this is he.” Then Samuel took the horn of oil, and anointed him in the midst of his brothers; and the Spirit of the LORD came mightily upon David from that day forward. And Samuel rose up, and went to Ramah. Now the Spirit of the LORD departed from Saul, and an evil spirit from the LORD tormented him. And Saul’s servants said to him, “Behold now, an evil spirit from God is tormenting you. Let our lord now command your servants, who are before you, to seek out a man who is skillful in playing the lyre; and when the evil spirit from God is upon you, he will play it, and you will be well.” So Saul said to his servants, “Provide for me a man who can play well, and bring him to me.” One of the young men answered, “Behold, I have seen a son of Jesse the Bethlehemite, who is skillful in playing, a man of valor, a man of war, prudent in speech, and a man of good presence; and the LORD is with him.” Therefore Saul sent messengers to Jesse, and said, “Send me David your son, who is with the sheep.” And Jesse took an ass laden with bread, and a skin of wine and a kid, and sent them by David his son to Saul. And David came to Saul, and entered his service. And Saul loved him greatly, and he became his armor-bearer. And Saul sent to Jesse, saying, “Let David remain in my service, for he has found favor in my sight.” And whenever the evil spirit from God was upon Saul, David took the lyre and played it with his hand; so Saul was refreshed, and was well, and the evil spirit departed from him.  –1st Samuel chapter 16.

The spirit working through others. God never abandons us. The Spirit departing from one corrupted by behavior away from the commandments of God enters another. The one left to his own devices, open to the influence of evil spirits, can not find peace.  There is never truly an abandonment of God when one has time and a life. For one struggling against the ways of God, no matter how diligent the effort nor extravagant the enterprise, nothing satisfies. Without the Holy Spirit is to live a life of torment. The only thing that brings lasting peace for Saul is the music of one filled with the spirit. Without the spirit, we long for the spirit. Our heart is restless, until it rest in you.  May God grant proper discernment, allowing torment, when we move against His ways. Fearfully falling into the sin of presumption, concupiscence, and obstinate self-will, God please impose unrest in our hearts during such times of dire consequence. Struggle is necessary when eternity is at stake.

For God alone my soul waits in silence; from him comes my salvation.
He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be greatly moved.

Psalm 62

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Necessities and patience

Jesus, I trust in You
Holy Presence I kneel broken, sincere, making the sign of the Cross,
Corpus Christi, resting exposed I repose blinded, overpowered,
Fighting within, struggling against pain and sadness, waiting,
Relishing moments of peace, capabilities, a monstrance, harvesting confidence,
Trusting, instituting patience, the Eucharist through, with and in the Church,
Lord, I am a weak, one filled with tears, arrest the anger,
I need You, bring me others to be near,

The just and the unjust must each carry his own cross. Carry it with patience to be saved; carry it with impatience and be lost….

…with this present life, those who practice the most patience have the most peace of mind. Let us be convinced that in this valley of tears true peace of heart cannot be found except by those who lovingly embrace their crosses to please Almighty God. “If anyone wishes to come after me,” says the Lord, “he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me” (Luke 9:23). This must be done, not by constraint and against our will, but with humility, patience, and love.

St Catherine of Genoa…”To attain union with God, adversities are indispensable. By them God aims at destroying all our corrupt propensities both within and without. All injuries, contempt, abandonment by loved ones, temptations and mortifications are necessary in the highest degree so that we carry on the fight until, by repeated victories, we come to extinguish all viciousness within us.”

“The patient man is better than the valiant” (Proverbs 16:32)…. –St Alphonsus Liguori ‘The Holy Eucharist’

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Correction

I was made aware of a fundamental error in my postings.  I have been spelling my therapist/spiritual director’s name wrong.  The proper spelling is Dr. Nichta.  Improper spelling is Dr Nitcha.  It makes sense once proper pronunciation is respected.  The ‘ta ending receives emphasis: Nich-TA.

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Feast of Corpus Christi preparation

O God, who in this wonderful Sacrament have left us a memorial of your Passion, grant us, we pray, so to revere the sacred mysteries of your Body and Blood that we may always experience in ourselves the fruits of your redemption. Who live and reign with God the Father in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever.

May the Lord bless us, protect us from all evil and bring us to everlasting life. Amen.

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Tilma early in the morning

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Three mysteries of the Rosary for the conversion of the world at five in the morning at Tilma is a refreshing way once a month to invigorate the spirit.  A Mary statue recovered and renovated, recalling glory days as the Highway Mary of Cleveland, a devotional prayed to in post-WWII days before traveling the highways in automobiles, a nation hitting its strongest stride.  Prayer groups allow the losing of one’s self amidst others of faith, the sharing of infusion. Dropping one’s defenses, desires, demands and delusions in the vulnerability of the moment before the most holiest of mothers is a sacred way, unification being embraced. Nothing more needs to be said. The quieting of the soul, allowing God to fill, can truly only be accomplished through prayer.  A poem, fifteenth century Middle English lyrics, praising Mary and her Divine Son.

I Sing of a Maiden

I sing of a maiden
That is matchless,
King of all kings
For her son she chose.

He came as still
Where his mother was
As dew in April
That falls on the grass.

He came as still
To his mother’s bower
As dew in April
That falls on the flower

He came as still
Where his mother lay
As dew in April
That falls on the spray.

Mother and maiden
There was never, ever one but she;
Well may such a lady
God’s mother be.

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