Poetry

Revitalization

Anonymity broadening,
Deepening, expanding,
Further unknown,
Open wide ancient doors,
St Clare providing,
A call to be alone,
A private chapel,
I AM alone,
A longing, a plea,
Not as quiet as a mouse, complaining,
Unification, joining the natural and the supernatural within love,
Healing,
Joseph and Mary praying as one,
Hearts beating, physical reality,
Reposed adoration,
I sit,
The Eucharist stands,
One Sacred, one a sinner, still one,
Sacred simplicity,
One point, four directions,
Emanating forth, forming a cross,
A crucifixion, dying,
Understanding withstands tainted inflection,
A lack of an accent,
A slap on the wrist,
Working men talking,
Sounding the world,
A concrete saw deafening,
Wisdom beguiling,
Beyond defining,
Footsteps, double doors open,
Another quiet, sitting in prayer,
Momentarily addressed,
Set apart,
Ritual found,
The revealing commenced.

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At Last

Poem by Father Abram J. Ryan

INTO a temple vast and dim,
Solemn and vast and dim,
Just when the last sweet Vesper Hymn
Was floating far away–
With eyes that tabernacled tears–
Her heart the home of tears–
And cheeks wan with the woes of years,
A woman went one day.

And, one by one, adown the aisles–
Adown the long, lone aisles–
Their faces bright with holy smiles
That follow after Prayer–
The worshipers in silence passed–
In silence slowly passed away;
The woman knelt until the last
Had left her lonely there.
A holy hush came o’er the place–
O’er the holy place–
The shadows kissed her woe-worn face,
Her forehead touched the floor;
The wreck that drifted thro’ the years–
Sin-driven thro’ the years–
Was floating o’er the tide of tears,
To mercy’s golden shore.

Her lips were sealed, they could not pray–
They sighed, but could not pray–
All words of Prayer had died away
From them long years ago;
But ah! from out her eyes there rose–
Sad from her eyes there rose–
The prayer of tears, which swiftest goes
To Heaven–winged with woe.

With weary tears, her weary eyes–
Her joyless, weary eyes–
Wailed forth a Rosary–and her sighs
And sobs strung all the Beads;
The while before her spirit’s gaze–
Her contrite spirit’s gaze–
Moved all the mysteries of her days
And histories of her deeds.
Still as a shadow, while she wept–
So desolately wept–
Up thro’ the long, lone aisle she crept
Unto an altar fair;
Mother!”–her pale lips said no more–
Could say no more–
The wreck, at last, reached Mercy’s shore–
For Mary’s shrine was there.

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Rest

My feet are wearied, and my hands are tired,
My soul oppressed —
And I desire, what I have long desired —
Rest — only rest.

‘Tis hard to toil — when toil is almost vain,
In barren ways;
‘Tis hard to sow — and never garner grain,
In harvest days.

The burden of my days is hard to bear,
But God knows best;
And I have prayed — but vain has been my prayer
For rest — sweet rest.

‘Tis hard to plant in Spring and never reap
The Autumn yield;
‘Tis hard to till, and ’tis tilled to weep
O’er fruitless field.

And so I cry a weak and human cry,
So heart oppressed;
And so I sigh a weak and human sigh,
For rest — for rest.

My way has wound across the desert years,
And cares infest
My path, and through the flowing of hot tears,
I pine — for rest.

‘Twas always so; when but a child I laid
On mother’s breast
My wearied little head; e’en then I prayed
As now — for rest.

And I am restless still; ’twill soon be o’er;
For down the West
Life’s sun is setting, and I see the shore
Where I shall rest.

Father Abram J Ryan

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Song of the Mystic

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At the words of the sacred Virgin Mary, St John was sanctified in his womb. Our Lord and St John the Baptist visited each other in the wombs of their mothers (the wombs of our mother are little worlds), and it is said that the glorious Precursor placed himself on his knees in adoration of his Savior and that at the same instant he was given the use of reason. But the world will believe only what it sees. (Be this said in passing). —The Sermons of St Francis de Sales on Our Lady

A voice cries: “In the wilderness prepare the way of the LORD, make straight in the desert a highway for our God. Isaiah 40:3

John answered them, “I baptize with water; but among you stands one whom you do not know, even he who comes after me, the thong of whose sandal I am not worthy to untie. Gospel of John 1:26-27

Song of the Mystic
by Father Abram J Ryan

I walk down the Valley of Silence —
Down the dim, voiceless valley — alone!
And I hear not the fall of a footstep
Around me, save God’s and my own;
And the hush of my heart is as holy
As hovers where angels have flown!

Long ago was I weary of voices
Whose music my heart could not win;
Long ago was I weary of noises
That fretted my soul with their din;
Long ago was I weary of places
Where I met but the human — and sin.

I walked in the world with the worldly;
I craved what the world never gave;
And I said: “In the world each Ideal,
That shines like a star on life’s wave,
Is wrecked on the shores of the Real,
And sleeps like a dream in a grave.”

And still did I pine for the Perfect,
And still found the False with the True;
I sought ‘mid the Human for Heaven,
But caught a mere glimpse of its Blue:
And I wept when the clouds of the Mortal
Veiled even that glimpse from my view.

And I toiled on, heart-tired, of the Human,
And I moaned ‘mid the mazes of men,
Till I knelt, long ago, at an altar
And I heard a voice call me:— since then
I walk down the Valley of Silence
That lies far beyond mortal ken.

Do you ask what I found in the Valley?
‘Tis my Trysting Place with the Divine.
And I fell at the feet of the Holy,
And above me a voice said: “Be mine.”
And there arose from the depths of my spirit
An echo — “My heart shall be Thine.”

Do you ask how I live in the Valley?
I weep — and I dream — and I pray.
But my tears are as sweet as the dewdrops
That fall on the roses in May;
And my prayer, like a perfume from censers,
Ascendeth to God night and day.

In the hush of the Valley of Silence
I dream all the songs that I sing;
And the music floats down the dim Valley,
Till each finds a word for a wing,
That to hearts, like the Dove of the Deluge,
A message of Peace they may bring.

But far on the deep there are billows
That never shall break on the beach;
And I have heard songs in the Silence
That never shall float into speech;
And I have had dreams in the Valley,
Too lofty for language to reach.

And I have seen Thoughts in the Valley —
Ah! me, how my spirit was stirred!
And they wear holy veils on their faces,
Their footsteps can scarcely be heard:
They pass through the Valley like Virgins,
Too pure for the touch of a word!

Do you ask me the place of the Valley,
Ye hearts that are harrowed by Care?
It lieth afar between mountains,
And God and His angels are there:
And one is the dark mount of Sorrow,
And one the bright mountain of Prayer!

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Father Abram J  Ryan, the poet-priest of the South, born at Norfolk, Virginia, 15 August, 1839; died at Louisville, Kentucky, 22 April, 1886. He inherited from his parents, in its most poetic and religious form, the strange witchery of the Irish temper. Fitted for the priesthood by a nature at once mystic and spiritual, he was ordained just before the beginning of the Civil War, entered the Confederate army as a chaplain, and served in this capacity until the end of the war. In the hour of defeat he won the heart of the entire South by his “Conquered Banner,” whose exquisite measure was taken, as he told a friend, from one of the Gregorian hymns. The Marseillaise, as a hymn of victory, never more profoundly stirred the heart of France, than did this hymn of defeat, the hearts of those to whom it was addressed. It was read or sung in every Southern household, and thus became the apotheosis of the “Lost Cause”. While much of his later war poetry was notable in its time, his first effort, which fixed his fame, was his finest production. The only other themes upon which he sang were those inspired by religious feeling. Among his poems of that class are to be found bits of the most weird and exquisite imagery. Within the limits of the Southern Confederacy and the Catholic Church in the United States no poet was more popular. After the war he exercised the ministry in New Orleans, and was editor of “The Star,” a Catholic weekly; later he founded “The Banner of the South” in Augusta, Georgia, a religious and political weekly; then he retired to Mobile. In 1880 he lectured in several Northern cities. As a pulpit orator and lecturer, he was always interesting and occasionally brilliant. As a man he had a subtle, fascinating nature, full of magnetism when he saw fit to exert it; as a priest, he was full of tenderness, gentleness, and courage. In the midst of pestilence he had no fear of death or disease. Even when he was young his feeble body gave him the appearance of age, and with all this there was the dreamy mysticism of the poet so manifest in the flesh as to impart to his personality something which marked him off from al other men. His “Poems, Patriotic, Religious, and Miscellaneous” have reached dozens of printings.  –Catholic Encyclopedia www.newadvent.org

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Chalice

Awareness of God: Trinity,
A presence unknowing,
Within understanding,
Within imperfection,
Within mercy,
Being lifted,
Expansion,
Consuming,
Pouring forth,
Divine revelation,
Beyond perception,
Eucharist silence adoring.

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A foundation for advancing

Oh Lord come to my assistance,
Oh Lord make haste to help me,
My mind is weary under waters stagnate,
A psychological sabotaging sting infecting,
Crucifying from within, tormenting and bewildering,
Born an infant wide eyed and aware,
An assassination, a mother broken, an orphanage,
Homeostasis seeking rejection, frustration, and protestation,
Abandoned to the wherewithal of inferior ways, obsession,
Broken ugly jagged edges cutting,
Bleeding, blood flowing, wounds sharing,
Unknowing the nurturing of compassion and care,
Eternal life-sustaining ways understood through negation,
Never known, never experienced, internal lacking, insufficiency,
The love of God, the love of Mary,
Something apart, something different, beyond, unique in surpassing.

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Tangible

Physicality
The celebration of mass
Five senses alert

Abandonment now
Careening serene worship
Heartbeat tuned silent

Focus acute time
Vessels altar reposing
Emptiness filling

Standing and kneeling
Refined breathing immersion
The mind undisturbed

Images singing
Ascending the incense burning
Taste the Host Divine

I have always been intrigued by the physical nature of mass, experiencing a sensuality to Catholic worship.  A delightful experience of corporeal arousal.  It is never better then when olfactory participation includes a head full of incense.  The smell of the burning accentuating consciousness, coalescing with the sounds, sights, and participation of an individual within the body of the Church, the tabernacle forefront, lording supreme.  It is metaphysical and transcending.  St Paul Shrine has added another dimension, one multiplying through attending.  Singing with the Poor Clares, tuning myself with their voices, absorbing myself within their consecrated life quiets my mind, opens me to grace, the Holy Spirit caressing so smooth.   Bonding, the sisters have become blissful in sharing, human interaction of sublime exchange.  Sister Mary Joseph leading hymns and responses, studious in her regard for preciseness, detail oriented in skill and performance.  My prayerful graceful awareness, one-on-one acknowledgement, from one of the Bangladesh sisters.  The past week has been rough, a period I must keep forefront, seeking accusatory while looking in the mirror,  supernatural in terror.  It is obvious where my strength arises: St Paul Shrine a source of wonder and nurturing, the home of the Eucharist standing perpetually.  Yesterday, while sitting and talking softly with the holy woman, mother of fourteen, grandmother of forty-two, joined by a Filipino woman leading Saturday prayers, the thought of the passing of Roger upon Wednesday, silent fellowship, watching ‘Mary of Nazareth’ with the extern sisters—a treasured experience to watch movies with the sisters, Father Roger walking past, smiling and waving, Sister Mary Thomas, the world renowned artist, came feebly walking out into the parlor.  After our one-on-one meeting, the sight of the bent woman, suffering abnormal curvature of the spine, poured graces into my heart, an actual physical delight tickling the hairs of my spine.  A smile today was all we shared.  The exchange of holy people within my life has become profound, appreciated, diving deep during my involvement at St Paul Shrine.  There are others attending.  The last week, I am convinced Satan unleashed a horrid attack, yet I quickly pull forth the wisdom of Dr Nichta: ‘maybe I am right and maybe I am wrong in my conviction, what does it matter?’  It matters in the sense that I must look in the mirror, comprehending I am culpable, contrite in compassion.  My strength comes from St Paul Shrine, the source and summit of my faith on display, I wandered away, allowing chatty conversation based in entertainment, exterior dallying replacing devout practice, distraction, and a shallowness to overtake my attention.  I am to blame.  Satan took advantage, working through a specific individual I care too much for.  It was dangerous and should have never been employed without the intercession of the Church, a direct meeting with Father Roger involved and officiating.  I did not flee from the wrath of Satan even when a blatant sign was given.  St Alphonsus Liguori marked me with the simple direction that one must flee from sin.  I must not think, presumption that my spiritual life has become strong, losing a fear of evil, curious, brave, bored, and seeking satisfaction ruling my better judgement in pursuing that which I should never come near.  St Teresa of Avila, the extraordinary one, writes of those weak in practice, aberrations, corrupt in delusion, authentic only in self-perception and socializing, interiorly a mess, as being weapons for Satan within the church, the means for evil to wage internal warfare through intimate or casual human interaction.  I am convinced Satan made a serious frontal assault under such conditions.  The table was set and he dined ravenously.  This is the second holy season, the previous Lent exact, this individual has wrecked havoc, tainting and soiling to the extreme portions of the year that have been set aside by the Church as devout in concentrated worship.  It is unbelievable, a harsh and penetrating reality of diseased proportion.  The matter must be tendered its proper grave respect, understood for its severity.  I am still exhausted.  I am even going to shut down from looking back, simply content in knowing where my strength exists, aware that I must hold myself accountable.

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