Unemotional,
Unassuming,
Unwavering,
Lacking passion,
Lacking the need for greatness,
Avoiding the penetrating eyes of others,
Abstaining from promises and praises,
Petitioning naught,
Finally without tears,
Indomitably set apart,
I adore You,
My Lord.

Pleading passive
Empty alone
Breathing solitary
Heart pumping
Blood warming
Fearing nothing
Nowhere to go
So many places explored
Tired
Rejecting everything
Yearning
Eternally longing
Craving
Needing eternal
Infusion intrusion
Overwhelming satiation
Lord I love You
No longer with words

Amassing tall standing.
Towers of defense.
Towers and towers and towers.
Babel on into impressive futility.
Awesome and awestruck.
Words conflicting.
Words aplenty.
Words deafening.
Sensory numbing too much.
Self-defense.
Over and over and over.
Overflow.
The time too much.
Restricting.
A tourniquet intense.
The time of refusing.
Building on into,
Immense heights,
Providing distance,
Availing a greater fall.
Dramatics defining,
Sentimentality infused,
Emotion igniting,
Brutal passions hammering,
Construction.
The time of denying.
Confusion sublime,
Brilliance refined,
Adored and glorified,
Desiring delicately magnificence.
Wounding a warrior,
Sent from above,
A Son Divine.
Self-inflicted demise.
Misery denied,
In knowing,
In practice prevailing.
The time of a great undoing.
Embracing genius stupendous.
Numerous languages sounding.
Complex tongues hungrily wagging.
Thirsty while drenched.
Singing songs of plunder.
Booty too heavy to carry.
Weighed down and dumbfounded.
The devil in details.
Subjects created the better to know.
Investigating proper planning.
Diagnosing devices alone.
Television meditating.
Wired or Blue Toothed while online.
Communicating synchronized WIFI.
Isolated conglomerations.
Towers of ivory.
Science and math and subjects for mastering.
Books and books and books.
Music and art and films galore.
Competing.
Crumbling.
Contrasting.
Cuddling.
Individual squandering.
Snowflakes falling,
On into,
Raging fires.
Screaming,
On into,
The gnashing of teeth.

Amidst failure,
Without reward,
Comprehending all my efforts are for naught,
My ambition blindness,
My alibis deafness,
Realizing amongst the faithful,
I am the least of my brother,
Shared brokenness through sin the lowest common denominator,
Elevation a romantic delusional endeavor,
Self-serving and wretched,
Understanding my intellect ranks nothing special,
Arrogant and proud,
Discerning my insight reflects self-centeredness,
Self-absorption a will to run riot,
Repeating worn phrases the severity of ignorance,
Needing the simple,
Routine and ritual a blessing,
Side-stepping dynamics,
Recognizing the paltriness of my offerings,
Conspicuous and Exposed,
My schemes and designs inadequate and flawed,
Stumbling upon the capricious wicked tongue,
The awkwardness of words,
Sentences going nowhere,
The humiliation of rigorous honesty,
Deciphering reality,
There will be no creative efforts of consequence,
No monumental writings,
Nothing whatsoever of my doing to hang my hat upon,
Everything debt,
Internalizing facts,
The most presentable to God a love He enkindles,
Yearning so deeply,
Suffering a surrender,
Resting not,
Until satisfied with, in, and through my Lord,
Reposed upon the Divine,
Content in smallness being an ugly reality,
Rather than a clever awareness,
A flight of egotistical fancy,
A misstep into disorder,
Can I still love God?
Under the immensity of conditions,
Grasping the spiritual life,
Simple and obvious,
Is mastered by few,
Cross-eyed and painful,
The slighted many errant,
Myself being one,
Knowing all He creates is good,
Can I still love God?