Monthly Archives: February 2015

St Clare tribute

I do not mean to be extravagant, yet sometimes I have intuitive moments.   Today during mass, I felt a deep love from St Clare.  I attended mass away from the Poor Clares of Perpetual Adoration Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday.  Today, I returned to their home to celebrate mass.  During mass, absorbed in the profound, I observed a large stain glass depicting St Clare warding off attacking Saracens with the Eucharist.  St Clare, a true contemplative, possesses a sacred and strong place in my heart. I pray to her to protect my spiritual partner.  I want to post an image in her honor.  I love this image.  St Clare pray for us.

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Mary Hidden

Can I offer myself to God solely based upon pure intent, simple and humble in nature, seeking no accolades or self-glorification on the deepest level. Unworthy servant I am, do I truly understand who I am and who God is? Forsaking self-promotion, abandoning faith focused upon personal elevation, I touch upon truth. Praying in a hidden alcove, loyal to the Church, collapsed upon the shoulders of saints, reposed within ritual and tradition, adoring the cross, resurrection, and Eucharist, the nature of grace reveals herself. A loving Mother hovering tenderly above dispenses abundantly.

Mary lived in obscurity most of her life. Her humility was so great that she desired to hide, not only from all other creatures, but even from herself, so that only God should know her. She asked Him to conceal her, and to make her poor and humble. God delighted to hide her; in her conception, in her birth, in her mysteries, in her resurrection and assumption. St Louis de Montfort ‘True Devotion to Mary’

Mary’s unknowing: “How shall this happen, since I do not know man?” Luke 1:34

So often God performs his greatest work in silence. Mary is alone. As the Holy Spirit comes upon her, and the power of the Most High covers her with its shadow (Luke 1:35-36), she conceives the Holy One to be called Son of God. The whole world was to be affected by this event which God worked in seclusion and silence. So, too, does His grace work in one’s soul. Mary’s was a secret joy until God willed to reveal it to others.

Mother Mary, pray for us that we may always allow God’s grace to work silently in our soul

Mary Assumption

Mary Assumption

During mass, am I consumed with adoration, gratification for the miracle of the Eucharist? Am I participating fully, or am I focused upon others, perhaps imagining others admiring, reducing the most sacred of time down to worldly imperfection? Does my mind wander, unfocused, consumed by fantasy, imagination running wild? Am I intellectualizing, perceiving myself an authority of the Church, judging the piety of others, reasoning, delusional in thought, seeing myself as a Bible scholar. Am I consumed with myself or have I stilled my mind? There before me, willing to be consumed, is the Presence. Opening heart and mind, the left hand unaware of the right, I must offer my brokenness to Christ, concentrating upon who Christ is? Who are you Lord? Lord who are you? Please, I beg Lord, let Yourself be known to me? I am quiet, stilled, empty, constantly engaged in the process of transforming myself into a vessel worthy of filling. I hear the Gospel–the Good News. I ingest the Host. I verbalize responses? I have prepared myself for mass through proper conduct, maintaining sanctifying grace, devoted to contemplation, cleansing psychologically, I wait upon You, my Lord. Lord, authentically, I approach. I am willing to acknowledge ignorance in order to know You better my Lord. Allow me to understand who you are. Lord I want to know You, to accept You in your fullness. Fill me Lord–my heart, soul, body and mind are Yours. All I am is Yours.

Oh Great and Glorious God, enlighten the darkness of my heart. Give me true faith, certain hope, and perfect charity. Grace me with understanding and knowledge so that I may carry out Thy commandments. The simple prayer offered by Saint Francis of Assisi before the cross of San Damiano. Christ responded.

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St Thomas Aquinas Eucharistic prayer

Eucharist

Eucharist

I Adore Thee

You, I devoutly adore, hidden Truth, you
who under these forms, are truly hidden.

My whole heart submits itself to you for,
in contemplating you, I am at a complete loss.
Sight, touch, taste, in you are deceived;
hearing alone can be completely believed.
I believe all the son of God has said; nothing
can be more true than the Word of truth.

Upon the cross the Godhead alone was
hidden, but here the humanity is also hidden.

Truly believing and confessing both,
I beg what the penitent thief begged.
I do not see wounds, as Thomas did,
but I confess you as my God.

Make me believe ever more in you,
having hope in you, and loving you.

O memorial of the death of the Lord,
living bread that gives life to man,
Allow me always to live for you, and allow
me to taste your sweetness always.

One drop of which would be enough to save
the whole world of all its defilement.

Jesus, whom I now gave at veiled, when
shall that which I so desire come to pass?
So that seeing you, your face revealed, I may
be blessed with the vision of your glory.

English translation by Paul Murray, O.P.

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Charioteer

Within all that is created exist goodness, a Divinely intended purpose. Passion, a part of creation, possesses spiritually furthering attributes. Passion can be recognized in a twofold manner, a positive and negative affecting. Benefiting, Irascibilis, spirited resistance, fortitude, a passionate approach to life endures one to become a warrior for Christ, a fighter within the Church Militant. Plaguing, Concupisciblis, concupiscence, the furies, fiery emotion and lust, passion that devours, burning, torching, never quenching, demanding and then demanding more, never reposing into satisfaction, always needing more—a helpless addict. Passion, two-fold powerful, propelling progressing or regressing, freedom or enslavement, life or death, salvation or damnation. The determining factor tipping scales being adherence to Divine will.

Can I discern properly, utilizing the Divine will of good pleasure, the events and happenings of my life, nothing being a coincidence, to cultivate a love for God and my neighbor? The signified will: commandments, teachings of the Church, scripture, the writings of doctors, saints, and consecrated ones of the Church, ‘Stand in the assembly of the elders. Who is wise? Cleave to him’ (Sirach 6:34), the signified will, undoubtedly, undeniably, clearly, details the commandments and ways of God. It is easy to know for those who seek. A yes is an obvious yes, and a no is an obvious no. The Divine will of good pleasure presents complexities, a dangerous arena to release passions upon. Misfortune, lust, sensual pleasure, success, failure, skills and accomplishment all blind, detouring one away from the signified will of God. As for what was sown among thorns, this is he who hears the word, but the cares of the world and the delight in riches choke the word, and it proves unfruitful.

All my efforts toward a scholarly knowing of God, practicing of prayer, either sweet or sour consolations, prove meaningless if I do not learn to harness my passions. The key is not to crush passion, yet to utilize the God given gift of a passionate nature to become strong in Christ. My passion must be tamed, steered toward the holy, given a mission rather than repressed. A passion for the passion of Christ ruling. My thoughts go to non-Catholic thought.

Plato, through Socrates in the dialog ‘Phaedrus’ offers ancient wisdom before the incarnation of Christ. First words from the Catechism.

843 The Catholic Church recognizes in other religions that search, among shadows and images, for the God who is unknown yet near since he gives life and breath and all things and wants all men to be saved. Thus, the Church considers all goodness and truth found in these religions as “a preparation for the Gospel and given by him who enlightens all men that they may at length have life.”

844 In their religious behavior, however, men also display the limits and errors that disfigure the image of God in them:

867 The Church is holy: the Most Holy God is her author; Christ, her bridegroom, gave himself up to make her holy; the Spirit of holiness gives her life. Since she still includes sinners, she is “the sinless one made up of sinners.” Her holiness shines in the saints; in Mary she is already all-holy.

868 The Church is catholic: she proclaims the fullness of the faith. She bears in herself and administers the totality of the means of salvation. She is sent out to all peoples. She speaks to all men. She encompasses all times. She is “missionary of her very nature” (AG 2).

Now back to thoughts on the driving of the two forms of passion, mortification, and the taming of Concupisciblis. Plato’s ‘Phaedrus’:

Of the nature of the soul, though her true form be ever a theme of large and more than mortal discourse, let me speak briefly, and in a figure. And let the figure be composite—a pair of winged horses and a charioteer. Now the winged horses and the charioteers of the gods are all of them noble and of noble descent, but those of other races are mixed; the human charioteer drives his in a pair; and one of them is noble and of noble breed, and the other is ignoble and of ignoble breed; and the driving of them of necessity gives a great deal of trouble to him.

As I said at the beginning of this tale, I divided each soul into three—two horses and a charioteer; and one of the horses was good and the other bad: the division may remain, but I have not yet explained in what the goodness or badness of either consists, and to that I will now proceed. The right-hand horse is upright and cleanly made; he has a lofty neck and an aquiline nose; his colour is white, and his eyes dark; he is a lover of honour and modesty and temperance, and the follower of true glory; he needs no touch of the whip, but is guided by word and admonition only. The other is a crooked lumbering animal, put together anyhow; he has a short thick neck; he is flat-faced and of a dark colour, with grey eyes and blood-red complexion (Or with grey and blood-shot eyes.); the mate of insolence and pride, shag-eared and deaf, hardly yielding to whip and spur. Now when the charioteer beholds the vision of love, and has his whole soul warmed through sense, and is full of the prickings and ticklings of desire, the obedient steed, then as always under the government of shame, refrains from leaping on the beloved; but the other, heedless of the pricks and of the blows of the whip, plunges and runs away, giving all manner of trouble to his companion and the charioteer, whom he forces to approach the beloved and to remember the joys of love. They at first indignantly oppose him and will not be urged on to do terrible and unlawful deeds; but at last, when he persists in plaguing them, they yield and agree to do as he bids them. And now they are at the spot and behold the flashing beauty of the beloved; which when the charioteer sees, his memory is carried to the true beauty, whom he beholds in company with Modesty like an image placed upon a holy pedestal. He sees her, but he is afraid and falls backwards in adoration, and by his fall is compelled to pull back the reins with such violence as to bring both the steeds on their haunches, the one willing and unresisting, the unruly one very unwilling; and when they have gone back a little, the one is overcome with shame and wonder, and his whole soul is bathed in perspiration; the other, when the pain is over which the bridle and the fall had given him, having with difficulty taken breath, is full of wrath and reproaches, which he heaps upon the charioteer and his fellow-steed, for want of courage and manhood, declaring that they have been false to their agreement and guilty of desertion. Again they refuse, and again he urges them on, and will scarce yield to their prayer that he would wait until another time. When the appointed hour comes, they make as if they had forgotten, and he reminds them, fighting and neighing and dragging them on, until at length he on the same thoughts intent, forces them to draw near again. And when they are near he stoops his head and puts up his tail, and takes the bit in his teeth and pulls shamelessly. Then the charioteer is worse off than ever; he falls back like a racer at the barrier, and with a still more violent wrench drags the bit out of the teeth of the wild steed and covers his abusive tongue and jaws with blood, and forces his legs and haunches to the ground and punishes him sorely. And when this has happened several times and the villain has ceased from his wanton way, he is tamed and humbled, and follows the will of the charioteer, and when he sees the beautiful one he is ready to die of fear. And from that time forward the soul of the lover follows the beloved in modesty and holy fear.

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Foreign Witness (running fiction)

As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

“Simply, it is an inability to control the passions. The twitching of appetite. Fueled by intemperance, the chained man the locals identify as Legion is helplessly lost to the fires of his desires, an abscess to the universe, privation embodied. Know thy self. Take up and read. He is out of the natural order. A wet soul as we Greeks say, obviously a drunkard, progressively it becomes worse. Only a dry soul can attain wisdom. Look at him thrashing about, a terrible display. There is nothing logical, no mastering of the logos, not even a curiosity of something greater. It is pure barbarianism, a level barely above animalistic. He may as well have fur sprouting from his flesh. Where is the pursuit of virtue, the controlling of fate? Quisque faber suae fortunae.

“Notice the size of the man. Tremendous. He is even taller and stronger than I am, yet he is foreign to his own body, a stranger to himself. A man that size could be powerful in the gymnasium. Understand, training the body is also training the mind, developing discipline, comprehending limitations and then transcendence. One’s abilities to move beyond the accepted. Becoming whole. It is good we came here to watch this man fighting that which we are all born into. My voice has returned and the desert is behind us. Once again, your instincts proved correct my friend Paki. You were invaluable in the sand and heat, and now this experience promises the extraordinary. The journey is Homeric in its extraordinariness, even more than my wanderings into India, although I did not make it to the mountain mysteries of Tibet. There is something to be learned here.”

Paki saw that his companion, the Greek, Timoleon, had returned to his former self. The talker was talking, the snakebite and swollen throat behind him. During the crossing of the Sinai, Timoleon lost his voice from dehydration. Due to dryness, his tongue and throat swelled, restricting his breathing, nearly reaching a point of blockage. Eliminated, his voice became silent. Now he was back to never shutting up, knowing everything, verbally consistently loud.

Paki spoke to Timoleon. “The one the Hebrews in Alexandria are gossiping about is said to be near the Sea of Galilee. His camp is in the town of Capernaum. He is the true reason we come.”

“The one who brings a rebirth through a cleansing in sacred waters? A prophet like those from Hebrew scripture—my latest fascination.”

“No not him. That one baptized in the river Jordan. I did not tell you. One of the travelers informed me the baptizer, as the traveler called him, was named John. He was imprisoned and killed by the local tetrarch Herod, beheaded for the sake of a young woman. The traveler told me the baptizer was strong in words and following. Now the baptizer’s followers follow the one we seek, the one who produces miracles. Jesus of Capernaum he was called.”

“Jesus? I do not recall that name from their writing. Possibly it relates to Joshua, the warrior who would follow Moses, warring the Israelites to their Holy Land. This Jesus is the healer of the sick, the one who enables the blind to see.” Timoleon responded. “I wonder if he is recognized as the messiah they have prophesied about for years? Those Alexandrian Jews speak so much about one who is to come. A king to set the world aright, rumors constantly whispered. Talk of a miracle worker spreads fast. The literature of the Jews is engrossing, defining a God like no others, with the possible exception of Zeus. However Zeus was a God amongst Gods. The God of the Israelites rules solitary.

“Their scripture is truly on the level of Homer, engrossing and fantastic in human drama. Plato and Aristotle defined ethics, the study of right and wrong, proper behavior and responsibility, yet the Jews present such matters divinely through the mouth of their God. It is not a philosopher who speaks, but God, more precise and defining than the Delphi Oracle. The Jews are not men elucidating thoughts; rather they are men recording the words and laws of a Divine One.

“It is unique amongst all that I have read, quite enthralling in content. What a concept. A single God responsible for all creation, a jealous punishing God of righteousness who demands unwavering servitude, seeking to provide guidance for those he created, and yet constantly rebelling. Commandments, vows, consecration and rebellion, a constant falling away after a devastating original falling. It synchronizes so well with so many of my thoughts, and those of other profound thinkers. Man is imperfect, in need of an education. Truth is truth, and these Jews are onto something worth exploring. I feel I am discovering something fresh and new similar to my experiences in India. Although as Plato expresses, nothing is truly new. The most profound teaching is a revealing of that which already exists within us. Revelation is a more appropriate word than attaining”.

Paki was not sure he was happy to hear his companion so versed once again. Circumlocution a mastered art, his talking grew tiresome. Paki responded. “You know I am not familiar with their writing. The healer is why I came to this cursed land. That experience in the desert nearly turned me back, yet it did not. You seem to have recovered.” Paki hesitated, looking off before continuing. “The traveler also told me further news about the healer. Now there is word he has brought one back from the dead.”

“Do not remind me of our time in the desert. It is enough we are here alive. I have lived an extensive life, and nothing compares in tribulation with that accursed sand.”

Timoleon considered the words of his companion, studying him, reflecting upon the desert crossing, noticing Paki was lost to his own thoughts.

“Regarding the resurrecting of one from the dead, I say one thing: impossible, simply folk tales. We all know the common man’s love of lies. He will believe anything. Even the superiorly educated cannot resist a clever twist of the tongue. Factual truth is not so important for the making of popular talk. Resurrection, returning from the dead? Out of the question. If it were possible, we Greeks would have accomplished it years ago. These uncivilized people could never consummate such a thing.”

“It is not the people who claim to do anything. It is their God they give credit to. You should know that. You read their scripture.”

“Well of course. They make claims of their God being the true active God, a God alive in the world, One all powerful, greater than your Egyptian deities. In ancient times, our Greek gods were claimed to be conspicuously active in the world. At least, such things were written, spoken and believed. However, since our time of civilized enlightenment the gods have drawn back, allowing man freedom to rule his own destiny through creativity and intelligence. Belief does not matter. The refinement of the body and soul is my quest. Beauty. So much has been accomplished. Wisdom has been revealed and expanded in so many areas, yet we have never come close to conquering death. Chicanery is most likely the truth behind these tales of bringing one from the dead. Do these Israelites even have an oracle like the one who use to reside in Delphi? I know of their Arc of the Covenant, yet that was destroyed years ago by the Babylonian king Nebuchadnezzar. You spent time amongst them. Tell me what you think.”

“They spoke to me about prophets, and one to come, a messiah who would save their nation, bringing them all together in their holy homeland. You have read their words you know about such talk. They are a closed society, isolating their nation from outside influence. They are difficult to understand as they breed fear and mistrust with the distance they demand. They do not work well with those of different heritage. Neither imitation nor inclusion is a part of their customs. They are a stiff necked people as you say.

“I became intimate with a close-knit community of Jewish musicians. One of them sought me out for assistance in the attaining of a lyre such as I have. I was able to acquire one for him and then I helped him and his son master it, putting it to use in accompaniment to the psalms they sing in praise of their God. They would gather and allow me to partake of their music and song. I have a beautiful voice as you know and they like to hear their sacred words coming from my mouth. I distinctly recall a particular song. The words are quite beautiful. In many ways, reminding me of the poetry you read Timoleon. Paki sang.

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside the still waters,
He restores my soul.
He guides me through the right paths
for his name’s sake.
Although I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I fear no evil,
for you are beside me:
your rod and your staff comfort me.
You spread a table before me
in the presence of my foes.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup is overflowing.
Goodness and kindness will follow me
all the days of my life,
I shall dwell in the house of the Lord
as long as I live.

“It always brings me comfort to sing these words. The sphere of influence of your philosophers has diminished with the ascendancy of Rome. You should be more considerate. Look at my people of Egypt. Time is not kind. Everything is small in the shadow of the wonder my ancestors created; monuments beyond conception. Yet now time moves forward. We have become nothing but the bread basket of Rome. The producer of grain for a foreign master.”

“Excellent with the song. The Israelites know poetry. Its possibilities, beauty, and depth. Their prophets I know. Magnificent words you sing. What we Greeks established can never be conquered. Wisdom is beyond the grasp of military might. We provided intellectual wealth and beauty; the advancement of humankind: civilization; an accumulation through generations, beyond completion, beyond particularism or individualism, an amassing of intellect. Individuals can emerge as harbingers, yet none can embrace totality. In fact, as mysteries exist: submission, humility, and diligence are means for individual glimpses. Mysticism is the par excellence of scholarly efforts. Lets us not forget that Socrates was who he was because he acknowledged his limited facilities. He forsook delusion, the pursuit of the irrelevant, for the sake of the meaningful.

“Wisdom eluded Alexander the Great. Combing the attributes of Achilles and Ulysses, the way of the warrior and cleverness, Alexander dominated the world with might and mind, yet he could not master himself, never able to rise to the rank of king, dying as a conqueror, unable to fill the void within. The Stoics honorably carry on, as do others. An easy mistake on the path of wisdom is the misperception that one’s ways are only true if they are greater than others, wasting vital energy in attack and defense. The mastering is subtle and mistakes can easily sidetrack. Wisdom is entrenched, unwavering, always proceeding, seeking light, desiring to be known, universal and loving.”

“Egypt left physical monuments to be admired. We have discussed your country often enough, and you know my feelings on Rome. Regarding intellect, they are nothing but borrowers, incorporating the ideas, customs, and beliefs of others. Might and engineering is the reason for their rise to supremacy. Politically and practically they are astute, understanding the wisdom of not conquering people, more wisely, bringing them into their nation, establishing relations based upon mutual benefit.

“Through might, Rome has brought peace to the civilized world. Pax Romana. There is much to be admired regarding the rise of Rome. Romans were clever in understanding citizenship as something viable, offering a greater life to those they defeated through Roman citizenship, a constant unifying of city states shall we say. We had our democracy, which was quite revolutionary, yet we never understood the strength of unifying. Us Greeks always warred upon each other. Animosity was the rule between our city states, and never did we envision the conquered as equals, always taking slaves.

“I find it interesting what you say regarding the Jews being isolationists. In Alexandria, people view them with suspicion. Now with Roman domination, the idea of amassing great numbers for validation seems to be the way of power. The mob has learned to rule. Pericles knew the political power of amassing the mob. Others have perpetrated such treason to reason. The future will only bring similar nonsense. I am partial to the words of Heraclitus when he uttered the wisdom: One man in my sight is a match for thirty thousand, but the countless hosts do not make a single one. It takes enlightenment and wisdom to rule, education a must, philosophy combined with real world experience essential. A responsible landowner, one capable in the courts and markets, as well as the arts and ethics, understands the importance of balancing for the greater good. If a governor is one who only knows how to govern, society will pay the debt. When politics becomes an end in itself, a career, good judgment is overshadowed. Professional politicians learn too quickly how to shape the malleable mob. The mob is incapable of seeing past selfishness. The mob’s ignorance promises destruction; implosion and chaos a natural consequence. I am in favor of the elite, well-rounded men in philosophy and business, ruling matters. Augustus is such a man, yet I am not in favor of one man ruling many, for it is inevitable that men of limited abilities, ignorant in everything except politics, will seize power. In the scheme of time, we will see where the rule of an emperor takes Rome.”

Paki saw that Timoleon had unequivocally returned to his former self. He was slightly annoyed, yet he did admire the mind of his companion, absorbing his thoughts.

Timoleon continued. “Back to the Hebrews. It is obvious to intentionally stay aloof as a group is dangerous, a recipe for disaster. Speaking of isolation, your Egypt was a rarity. What allowed Egypt to flourish for so many years is no longer possible in our part of the world. Only from the sea, the Mediterranean, the sea that connects so many terrains, was Egypt open to armies. The sea was always a treacherous place, feared by many cultures, the Israelites being one, and where it met land dangers always existed. Young women know to avoid the coast. With pirates roaming and honest sailors favoring beautiful foreign girls, the coast promised abduction bound for strange lands for a pretty girl. Egypt was a geographical marvel, inaccessibility due to deserts. For armies, the deserts were a border. Oh my friend, how we learned to hate the desert ourselves.”

Timoleon, the Greek, talked on into the night.

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