Ethereal reconciliation, lacking material or cognitive substance, no suspecting or expecting, recompense put on indefinite destitution. I wait for marching orders, receiving none. I know a break from the recent was necessary, beyond repair, indispensably detached, no looking back, wandering away on into…nothingness appears, emptiness and void creating, mandating prayer, a purer, simpler path, cleansing, mortification, mass receiving, the Eucharist, options move about, appearing as shadows within a fog, patience, waiting, calling loudly forth.

The Resurrection, anticipating assumption, judgement and the love of Christ. Mary pierced, seven sorrows sadly sanctifying.

A new home, temporary and refined, distance demanding, alone amidst good people. Complications arise. A bulldog penetrating, mishandled, scared fearful, psychologically wounded, fierce and unrelenting in intent, an alpha male only two months in a new home at two years of age. A piercing thundering bark, unable to repose, the muscular bulldog weighing in close to ninety pounds, will not give me a chance. Insanity pursues, the bulldog, constantly hyped, perpetually preps for an attack, so agitated by my presence it breaks out in a rash, its throat swelling. The bulldog will not accept. Madly, self-will barks through the pain of individual mongrel past. Neighbors beware, this bulldog is fierce. A four legged beast becomes dictating. The bulldog attempts a bite, a professional is called in, a will and a prayer. The trainer, producing only animal agitation, speaks of the seriousness of the canine misbehavior, psychological complications, recommending sedating pet medication, a muzzle, the fact a bulldog of this magnitude is a formidable challenge. Techniques brought into practice, the energy drain becomes enormous. Greater horizons, a seeking. Discerning endeavor, God’s will absorbed. Nothing determined.