I am pleased with the consequences of a recent discernment process. The last month has been filled with the blessing of spiritual exercises in excess, as well as an abundance of faith based social activity. My personal time increased with a work slowdown, the elimination of a six day work week and a week shutdown. Work stills provides a lack of definition in regards to long term stability, yet Saturday work is returning. I will be able to stockpile cash once again. The dalliance into extended personal time proved profitable. Spiritually tuning, concentrating upon maturity, God provided edifying experiences. The Congregation of the Blessed Sacrament, I subtly focused upon in regards to elevating my social and daily life. I felt a call to pursue matters with the organization. Rewarded in the encountering of a unique, intelligent and educated community, I do not observe the level of service my charism calls forth. The community will remain a vital source of inspiration and activity within my life, while at this time not supplying further commitment. They are established as a source of sustenance, and within St Paschal Baylon a thriving parish to keep my eye upon. Something is always going on within that church. During the one day retreat, I met a woman who impressed me tremendously. She was our team leader when breaking into smaller groups. Her demeanor and shared conversation identified her as a humble mature woman of depth. A Hospice chaplain, she exercises faith professionally on a profound level. Our interaction after the retreat influences with a lesson of God. I spoke with her, Sarah, over the telephone regarding my desire to increase my service to the church. Through my experiences with Janette in Toledo, a ninety-six year old friend, a former leader of communal Rosaries, now interned at a nursing home, bedridden for the rest of her life, and another friend in Toledo who would take me to nursing homes on Fridays at 3 PM to pray the Rosary and Divine Office with patients, a respect for taking the Rosary to those institutionalized due to infirmities developed. Sarah understood. She guided me to the Hospice of the Western Reserve, encouraging me to make immediate contact regarding volunteering possibilities, the potentiality of taking the Rosary to those in dire need. I followed her direction, pleased with a wonderful conversation with a volunteer director. Proper paperwork is being filed, and class training is being scheduled to suitably qualify me as a viable volunteer. The pursuit of providing service through faith, hope, and charity has been engaged. Sarah further detailed the process of becoming a Eucharistic minister, encouraging me that once established as an authentic source of spiritual nourishment by praying the Rosary and providing Christian fellowship, I can advance matters to taking the Eucharist to those facing the severity of a Hospice. I admire the way God guided me to the Congregation of the Blessed Sacrament, yet through the experiencing, being open and attentive, another provided the means for furthering aspirations within Christ. The aftermath, speaking with Sarah, pleased with her mature influence, her sole dedication to faith, I desired to call her back, inquiring about the possibility of spending personal time together. Acting upon imagination, I called her once again. Within polite straight forward conversation, she declined my invitation, thanking me for the offer, yet stressing she felt no need to pursue matters in such a regard. Her words soothed. Hearing them spoken within maturity, I comprehended I was manipulating, attempting to attain more than God intended. With no regret or useless self-deceiving shame, I am proud to progress further, to pass through and forward in the name of Christ.