Forgive me Lord for everything I hold back, my Lord, for everything I pin down so it will not reach for You.

Even though I’m yours, I keep everything from You.  Forgive me for everything I destroy, conquer and overcome within me.

Forgive me for locking up my soul with seven keys and not answering when you knock.  Forgive me for subduing my body, for nailing it to a wall to keep it away from you.  Forgive me for dominating my body and soul, for being more powerful than you and more powerful than myself.

Forgive me for being so strong (obstinate).  I never wanted all this strength, but as I am, so shall I be.

Jacob wrestled with an angel for a night, but I have wrestled with him all my life, and still, I have yet to see the face of an angel bleeding at my feet.