Growing, maturing, into softness,
Gifting a grateful harmonious silence,
Others left alone, Carthusian tendering,
Malleability, pliability, forming hands from inward,
Day by day by day by day by day,
Over and over and over and over and over,
Repetition, doing the same things perpetually,
Subtle transformation, appetites and attitudes subdued, volume decreasing,
Desires ordered, afflictions turned over, instincts reigned in, discipline,
It took a lifetime of failure to produce illumination, grace overflowing,
Predilection, accepting mediocrity, recognizing misery, privation defining,
Reconstruction, repentance, refining, unadorned, avoiding madness,
Cynicism critiqued, revealing three fingers pointing,
Left alone, it is myself I should fear,
Left alone, it is myself who is miserable,
Fellowship, humility, observing others blossoming into friends,
Where can I go when I dissapear into disordered solitude?
Where can I go overwhelmed by fear?
Hiding is not an option, neither is sin a refuge,
Crashing into dramatics, wallowing within delusional childhood,
What was that about dreams?
A voice, Padre Pio admonishing reprehensible behavior,
Exhortation, scolding, berating habitual deterioration,
A celestial wind, a silent roar, two cherubs twining, emitting heartstrings,
Send forth an opening, a hallowing, calling upon Virgo Potens,
The impression of death, eternity, the loving expanse of an end.
All is quiet, all is good, all is humble, all is still,
Hope! The race can be won.