A funeral Mass. Be careful, God is transforming. An urn, a cremation, the same as my father. My father. Thinking of my father, a life ending. Tears for a hymn, a calling, thoughts of teaching. I am content, yet still dirty. Waiting and patient with myself.

Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night
I will go, Lord, if you lead me
I will hold your people in my heart

It is in this that the goodness and wisdom of God is most admirably set forth, that He offers us a means of sanctifying ourselves through our very miseries, and we shall never be able to make the excuse that we could not become saints because we committed grave sin, when those very sins might have been the means of sanctifying us by urging us to a deeper humility. How great is God’s mercy in thus giving me the means of sanctifying myself if only by remembering that I have sinned and by meditating, in the light of Holy Faith, upon what it means to be a sinner!  –“Humility of Heart” Fr. Cajetan Mary da Bergamo