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Further Chicago exploring—centering upon State Street—the Gene Siskel Film Center.  There is a parking garage right across the street, access from Randolph Street. With a purchased ticket, parking for the day is $20.00. Fun garage with a steep ascending and descending spiraling drive, covering six floors or so. From the exterior, it is hard to notice from the street. It is an excellent downtown location to use as a homespot. Between the two films, I walked north on State Street, passing the Chicago Cathedral, crossing the Chicago River, eating at a fast food chicken joint—awesome lightly-greasy fried chicken and empanadas at the intelligent fast food joint Pollo Campero. They serve their sit-down dinners on high quality ceramic colorful plates. Cheap easy quality eating. The first film of the night was Sick of Myself, Scandinavian, odd sense of humor, distinctly European. Exercising an absurdity and ridiculousness I could not finish in Everything Everywhere All at Once, this film won me over. Busting me out in laughter many times with its relevant biting insight. It pokes fun at self-absorption—narcissism and the needy. Fantasy, dreams, and delusions a perverted way of life. The humor is abrasive yet engaging, daring and willing to carry everything to a pathetic ending. In the final scene the adorable female lead is sprawling upon the ground uttering a pollyannaish mantra amidst her wellness group. Mexican fried chicken and empanadas quickly consumed, I barely made it back in time for the second feature. My last minute arrival forced me to sit in the front row, directly in the middle, a gap of four chairs. Human Flowers of Flesh was preceded by a Film Center employee introducing the director Helena Wittmann, announcing she would be taking questions afterwards. The viewing proved bountiful—meditative still cameras broken by the countable moving shots. Openness and diving in, broad expanses and penetrating—crossing the Mediterranean, a journey with friends, blueish green translucent water, motion unique and odd, curiously following the path of the current French Foreign Legion, before meeting a stern captain in Algiers, a man who juggles eggs before scrambling them. Quieting, the movie is calming, an immersion into pleasant images and imaginative interior interruptions: the microscopic devouring–the invisible and miniscule; water diving the camera–panning from the floating Ida, female lead amidst men, the camera descends deeply into the Mediterranean. Something blurry draws closer and comes into focus. It is a World War II bomber on the bottom of the sea. Another interruption is the blueish over-exposed dream sequence. I was lucky enough to ask Helena about it. She said it took her a year to complete—never sure it would be included in the final cut. She worked closely with her music director in creating a distant other-reality motif. Another interruption is the passionate percussive dance scene, the physicality and altered reality a release for the sojourners. The crew finally lands in Sidi Bel Abbes, the trail of a legionnaire becoming a focal point. The actor is Denis Lavant from Claire Danes Beau Travail, a critically acclaimed remake of the French Foreign Legion take on Herman Melville’s Billy Budd. Helena Wittmann rides only trains when traveling in the states. She speaks wonderful English, a charm to behold. I included an interview with her posted on YouTube.

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Prayer for My Father

Your head is still
restless, rolling
east and west.
That body in you
insisting on living
is the old hawk
for whom the world
darkens.
If I am not
with you when you die,
that is just.

It is all right.
That part of you cleaned
my bones more
than once. But I
will meet you
in the young hawk
whom I see
inside both
you and me; he
will guide
you to the Lord of Night,
who will give you
the tenderness
you wanted here.

a poem by Robert Bly

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My Father at Eighty-Four

His large ears
Hear everything.
A hermit wakes
And sleeps in a hut
Underneath
His gaunt cheeks.
His eyes blue, alert,
Disappointed,
And suspicious,
Complain I
Do not bring him
The same sort of
Jokes the nurses
Do. He is a bird
Waiting to be fed,-
Mostly beak-an eagle
Or a vulture, or
The Pharaoh’s servant
Just before death.
My arm on the bedrail
Rests there, relaxed,
With new love. All
I know of the Troubadours
I bring to this bed.
I do not want
Or need to be shamed
By him any longer.
The general of shame
Has discharged
Him, and left him
In this small provincial
Egyptian town.
If I do not wish
To shame him, then
Why not love him?
His long hands,
Large, veined,
Capable, can still
Retain hold of what
He wanted. But
Is that what he
Desired? Some
Powerful engine
Of desire goes on
Turning inside his body.
He never phrased
What he desired,
And I am
His son.

a poem by Robert Bly

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Fortitude in the face of suffering

“Gentlemen, we’re all cruel, we’re all monsters, we all make men weep, and mothers, and babes at the breast, but of all, let it be settled here, now, of all I am the lowest reptile! I’ve sworn to amend, and every day I’ve done the same filthy things. I understand now that such men as I need a blow, a blow of destiny to catch them as with a noose, and bind them by a force from without. Never, never should I have risen of myself! But the thunderbolt has fallen. I accept the torture of accusation, and my public shame, I want to suffer and by suffering I shall be purified. Perhaps I shall be purified, gentlemen? But listen, for the last time, I am not guilty of my father’s blood. I accept my punishment, not because I killed him, but because I meant to kill him, and perhaps I really might have killed him. Still I mean to fight it out with you. I warn you of that. I’ll fight it out with you to the end, and then God will decide. Good‐by, gentlemen, don’t be vexed with me for having shouted at you during the examination. Oh, I was still such a fool then…. In another minute I shall be a prisoner, but now, for the last time, as a free man, Dmitri Karamazov offers you his hand. Saying good‐by to you, I say it to all men.”

His voice quivered and he stretched out his hand…

‘The Brothers Karamazov’ written by Fyodor Dostoyevsky 

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Contrast

God speaking to St Catherine of Siena:

“It is necessary for you to have two lights derived from this primary light, and to these two I will also add a third. The first lightens you all to know the transitory nature of the things of the world, all of which pass like the wind. But this you cannot know thoroughly, unless you first recognize your own fragility, how strong is your inclination, through the law of perversity with which your members are bound, to rebel against Me, your Creator (not that by this law any man can be constrained to commit any, even the smallest sin, against his will, but that this law of perversity fights lustily against the spirit). I did not impose this law upon you, in order that My rational creature should be conquered by it, but in order that he should prove and increase the virtue of his soul, because virtue cannot be proved, except by its contrary. Sensuality is contrary to the spirit, and yet, by means of sensuality, the soul is able to prove the love which she has for Me, her Creator. How does she prove it? When, with anger and displeasure, she rises against herself. This law has also been imposed in order to preserve the soul in true humility. Wherefore thou seest that, while I created the soul to Mine own image and likeness, placing her in such dignity and beauty, I caused her to be accompanied by the vilest of all things, imposing on her the law of perversity, imprisoning her in a body, formed of the vilest substance of the earth, so that, seeing in what her true beauty consisted, she should not raise her head in pride against Me.

The Dialogue of St Catherine of Siena

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