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De Profundis

a poem by Christina Rossetti

                                         Oh why is heaven built so far,
                                         Oh why is earth set so remote?
                                         I cannot reach the nearest star
                                         That hangs afloat.

                                        I would not care to reach the moon,
                                        One round monotonous of change;
                                        Yet even she repeats her tune
                                        Beyond my range.

                                        I never watch the scatter’d fire
                                        Of stars, or sun’s far-trailing train,
                                        But all my heart is one desire,
                                        And all in vain:

                                        For I am bound with fleshly bands,
                                        Joy, beauty, lie beyond my scope;
                                        I strain my heart, I stretch my hands,
                                       And catch at hope.

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Another Day

There is nothing I can do,
Within the falling rain.
And God’s silent refrain,
The thunder and the pain.

The murder of many,
Gunshots and wounds,
Assault rifles and weapons,
Another hostage screams out.

And the silence remains,
Brilliant men riddle,
Crack pots exhume,
Pretending prophets speak proud.

Loyalties abused, divisions entrenched,
Intimidation and insults launched about,
Dead bodies and lifelines,
This time around.

I have fallen, an act consumed,
Bewildered and selfish,
A one-day clock chimes loud,
I know nothing, I know nothing.

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A Poem for Anna

We are set apart,
Something not a part,
Something distant
From the changing times,
The blowing winds,
The seaside escapes,
The tiny escapades,
From running reasoning minds
Of brilliance and cavalcades,
The rising of the tide,
Indisputable arguments,
The wrestling with impermanence,
We sit silent, unafraid,


Not needing,
Not needing reinforcements,
Not needing attention,
Not needing victory,
Not seeking to defeat,
The difficult suffering,


What we do is hard,
Content in being apart,
Passing beads through fingertips,
Touching and caressing,
The presence lingering within,

Expanding darkness,
Empty space filling,
Purging imperfections,
Overwhelmed and tongue-tied,
At peace in rustic abstinence,
Content with our wretched poetry,
Unafraid, fearing no thing,

Happy with all things,
Loving and kind,
Fighting back the violence within,
Aware the battle is within,

Knowing hope,
Knowing charity,
Knowing faith,

While unsure about everything,
Doubting ourselves,
Not believing in ourselves,
Fasting, abnegation, frugality,
Renouncing, rejecting, refusing,
Flowering from within.

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Invocation

…..sorrowful mysteries,

Purging at the pillar,

Meditating upon purity,

A cleansing,

Myself disciplining,

Peaceful dove,

Teach us wisdom,

Teach us love,

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Discernment

If it is the Lord really working through our thoughts, he will persist despite our attempts to dismiss them. If, as is much more likely, it is our own mind seeking to insert themselves into the contemplative work, these insights will usually fade away once we seriously seek to dismiss them. Thus I have found it quite safe, and pleasing to the Lord, to say to the Him: Lord if these thoughts and images are really from you, you insist on them. But since it is more likely that I am the source of them and they are interfering with Your work in me, I will continue quietly to push them aside.  –“When the Well Runs Dry: Prayer Beyond the Beginnings” Father Thomas H. Green

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Slavery, and the loud cry of freedom

As I have returned to school in order to complete my bachelor’s degree in order to teach, I came across the writings of Frederick Douglass, reading ‘The Heroic Slave’. The name was always there, a part of my lexicon of historical names; however, honestly I never read him. I was overpowered by his mastery as a writer. The ability to convey the profound while telling an engaging dramatic story captured me. I wanted to share a paragraph.

“What, then, is life to me? it is aimless and worthless, and worse than worthless. Those birds, perched on yon swinging boughs, in friendly conclave, sounding forth their merry notes in seeming worship of the rising sun, though liable to the sportsman’s fowling-piece, are still my superiors. They live free, though they may die slaves. They fly where they list by day, and retire in freedom at night. But what is freedom to me, or I to it? I am a slave,—born a slave, an abject slave,—even before I made part of this breathing world, the scourge was platted for my back; the fetters were forged for my limbs. How mean a thing am I. That accursed and crawling snake, that miserable reptile, that has just glided into its slimy home, is freer and better off than I. He escaped my blow, and is safe. But here am I, a man,—yes, a man!—with thoughts and wishes, with powers and faculties as far as angel’s flight above that hated reptile, —yet he is my superior, and scorns to own me as his master, or to stop to take my blows. When he saw my uplifted arm, he darted beyond my reach, and turned to give me battle. I dare not do as much as that. I neither run nor fight, but do meanly stand, answering each heavy blow of a cruel master with doleful wails and piteous cries. I am galled with irons; but even these are more tolerable than the consciousness, the galling consciousness of cowardice and indecision. Can it be that I dare not run away? Perish the thought, I dare do anything which may be done by another. When that young man struggled with the waves for life, and others stood back appalled in helpless horror, did I not plunge in, forgetful of life, to save his? The raging bull from whom all others fled, pale with fright, did I not keep at bay with a single pitchfork? Could a coward do that? No,— no,—I wrong myself,—I am no coward. Liberty I will have, or die in the attempt to gain it. This working that others may live in idleness! This cringing submission to insolence and curses! This living under the constant dread and apprehension of being sold and transferred, like a mere brute, is too much for me. I will stand it no longer. What others have done, I will do. These trusty legs, or these sinewy arms shall place me among the free. Tom escaped; so can I. The North Star will not be less kind to me than to him. I will follow it. I will at least make the trial. I have nothing to lose. If I am caught, I shall only be a slave. If I am shot, I shall only lose a life which is a burden and a curse. If I get clear, (as something tells me I shall,) liberty, the inalienable birth-right of every man, precious and priceless, will be mine. My resolution is fixed. I shall be free.”

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