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More Than A Life

Encompassing all this,
Withholding for naught,
Auguring totality,
Things to be,
Simplicity complex,
Perplexity immense,
Innocence shattered,
A Bloody aftermath remains,
A birth, a death, a rebirth, eternity,
Falling through the ages,
Creation centers in being,
An individual extreme,
Conception, a waiting womb forming,
A slap on the bare ass, a scream,
It is time,
A life baptized,
Awake little innocent one birthed in likeness to ultimate unity,
Now you are one set apart,
Cry and scream,
Hunger and demand,
Belch and vomit,
Throw up upon yourself,
Passions aplenty,
Amazed and delighted,
Wiggle the fingers and toes,
Childhood growing,
A voice, subconscious forming,
Parents, broken adults loving, teaching, rearing,
Offering a name, others to huddle and cuddle amongst,
Effort, mistakes, success,
Pleasure and pain,
Skinned knees,
Gratifying victories,
The measles and mumps,
A broken heart,
A home run,
A game winning three,
Memories amidst the surviving,
Sitting in a pew week after week witnessing,
Receiving communion,
Generational imperfections amass,
The parental arrow that pierces was never meant to fly,
The embedded arrows within let loose the one that stings,
It is not of God, the brokenness within,
Children become fathers and mothers,
Sons and lovers,
Daughters and danger,
Siblings and sadness,
Competition and fun,
Let us cry and laugh,
Allow experiences to linger while new ones are birthed,
Surpass, surmount,
Holy Mother witness, watch, pray, shower graces,
Undo knots,
Heal,
Crush the serpent’s head,
You, the profound everlasting Mother,
Regenerate generations,
To lose one little sheep,
No, No, No,
Trinity please appease,
Through time, through births, through the many,
Emancipate one,
Enslave none,
Lord above, seated at the right hand,
A cross your earthly throne,
Your crown thorns,
Transform sorrow,
Allow joy to reign eternally supreme.
For each and every,
Heart beating within suffering,
Touch the individual standing alone,
Washed in sin, in faith, in hope, in love,
Life must surpass original sin,
Eclipse psychological and physical disasters,
A lasting train wreck God never directed,
Expand, breath into the virtues Holy Spirit,
Provide the gifts of true worldly advancement,
Archangels assist,
Bellow Gabriel, guide Raphael, protect Michael,
All you saints adore the wonder of individual creation,
Let not one escape without time changing battles,
Love the one in peril,
The Church of Christ support, sustain, inspire, teach,
Soothe the deepest wounds,
Filial infestation,
Hurting the deepest, the ones loved most,
Psychological impairment,
Blockage, obstacles,
Catholic church heal, amend,
A soft gentle touch,
A harsh brutal reprimand, discipline,
Sacramental gifting,
Transfiguration,
Obedience,
The Eucharest adoring,
Being adored,
Swallowing whole salvation.

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Man Tower witnesses the baptism of St Francis before setting out for the old man of the mountain

Towers

Towers

There was another also witnessing. Alberto saw Pietro making his way to the stables as he exited in the morning. Rarely sleeping, up before others, falling asleep after others, Man Tower dominated through perception and awareness. Something about the merchant bothered him greatly. The man schemed. He intended espionage through his squire. Never would Man Tower have kissed his very footprint, giving thanks to God for the existence of anything close to resembling the merchant represented. Certain men reviled him. Convinced he possessed no choice in the matter, he deployed to counter attacks, preparing for the demise of those who acutely agitated. When the merchant emerged from the stables with Ricco, he followed. Trusting his squire, he had to know what the wily shop owner was up to, such a man did nothing without motive for profit.

It was not long before Pietro was escorting Ricco into the cathedral of St Rufino. Man Tower stood outside unobservantly observing, before following into the interior. In the stealth manner he was able to attain despite his size, Alberto snuck into the cathedral, witnessing the baptism himself. It was innocent enough. He perceived the intent of the textile merchant. The shop owner was attempting to gain his favor through Ricco. Alberto trusted Ricco, fearing nothing the crafty shop owner, usual with unclean spirits, could conceive.

About to stealthy depart, the crying of the baptized baby drew Alberto’s attention. The thought struck he never witnessed a baptism before. He observed the baby as he was handed to his godparents. An iridescent aura radiated. The strangeness of ordinary things that occurred upon the unordinary battlefield struck the moment. Details became acutely apparent, time transparent to unfathomable profoundness, meanings manifested that could not be obviously stated, nor appropriately comprehended. The baby’s eyes turned toward him, closing the distance between them, a vertiginous moment soothing. Alberto found it difficult to stand, to hold his place upon his feet. Strange, foreign interior words came forth evil spirit come out of her.

Alberto, always preparing for an attack, constantly entertaining conflict, felt the need to raise defenses. Something unseen confronted. What was happening during the baptizing of the merchant’s son? Everything; perception, reality, thought, physicality, all seemed to be an illusion pointing to something greater, to almighty God, yet there was no comfort, only collusion. Unknowable knowledge became apparent. God knew this baby, through the works of all things. The palpable indefinite conviction announced eternal salvation, something set apart becoming a part. The intuition blanketed his mind, covering mental sores and wounds of the mind, smothering. Acquiescing, he settled into admiration of the beautiful baby who would become the man of God, like a grandparent admiring their first grandchild; the acceptance of aging through the exquisiteness of infancy, polar opposites uniting in authentic conception; the descent of the Holy Spirit upon the needing—to be set free and to be with Christ. He prayed for his mother, wishing she could see this baby. People, that are in the world, gathering around the baby, blocked Alberto’s vision, eliminating the moment of sublime revelation.

Making the sign of the cross with holy water, reminding him of a washing, somewhat slightly dazed, Alberto exited the cathedral. The face of the baby, its aura, etched in his mind; the eyes and perpetual smile lasting. In the clefts of the rock, in the hollow of the wall, his eyes unfocused, wandered past.

Emptied of himself, walking through Assisi, Man Tower, reposing back into demented knightly persona, sought Lord Montaninus, his former comrade in arms, hand in hand, with Barbarossa. Montaninus made arraignments to meet at a tavern near Minerva’s Temple. Alberto was to eat at the tavern. The cost would be of no concern. What was of the Lord? Following the meal, he would be led to the back of the establishment where Montaninus would be waiting. They would then venture to a castle hidden amongst the wilderness of Mount Subasio, a castle hosting an aged nobleman whispered to be insane, as well as a mystic, the word of God upon his lips, a man of worldly and spiritual extraordinariness.

An unseen female voice spoke from a table in close proximity. “That old man gives me the creeps. I don’t care what you say I am convinced he is a pervert.”

“It does not matter what he is. What has been wrong with you? For weeks now you have proven impossible, snapping at everything. The old noble provides means we could never attain. Trusting to the mercy of the almighty. You are so quick to grow angry in time of need. I worry about you. Look deeper. The old one truly asks very little of us. We know worse debauchery for less pay—only the younger ones are handsomer and hearty, yet that does not seem to bother you as much as the old one who never asks for deplorable things. Though he began to speak, you should not despise him.”

“Maybe he gives wealth, providing jewelry and gold as easy as others give promises, however we pay through the debasing we endure acquiescing to his, to his…I am not even sure what it is the old man burdens us with. Unspoken demands—that is what he procures. I cannot figure the old one out.”

“You feel him to be a burden. Those who were touched in their hearts, amazed with his deeds, tell of his goodness.”

“Yes. He is insane. How often he resorts to a juvenile nature. I cannot stand looking at his decrepit face. Determination, I cannot maintain. Sometimes, the way he speaks to us, as if we were children just learning to walk, makes me desire to scratch his eyes out. His patronizing is so demeaning. And you fall into the childish talk he so enjoys, speaking to one another as if you were children. I have to force my mind into other places, fearing his insanity will infiltrate my mind. Tainted are his ways. He must know I hate him.”

“Why would you hate him? Over the saints household, he perseveres. I feel sorry for him for being so gullible, a son…an only child to its mother. A story here, emotion espoused, a tear, and the old fool is opening his coffers. It is too easy sleeping in the lap. I even find it fun, like playing a part in the theater. There is no reason to hate him. Seriously sweetie, you just have not been yourself for some time now. The new planting of a fresh attitude you must embrace.”

“I guess…I do not know…it is too easy. I feel my soul is at stake in unknown ways. For this very reason alone, everything is wrong. One day, he will discharge his guards upon us. His chosen vineyard protected. Then we will know death and maybe he will have arraigned everything so our souls are sucked down into the depths of hell. They will say about us their efforts came to naught. We will lose our heads and suffer eternally. It is so creepy to be blindfolded en route to provide for their needs. Still, I hate it even more when he visits the city, sent down to the earth.”

“You worry too much. Please him. Open his heart to the experience of a daughter, be joined to the soul. That is all he wants from us, the pleasure to love a child, his own child. Rejoice greatly, falling at his feet. His sons are dead, the father of the poor. He has no one, for empty glory. He provides so well. A gift horse must not be examined too closely. A curse, he is not. To masquerade as a daughter is not such a horrid thing. The father of the poor, let him be. Christ made himself poor for us in this world. Let us not suffer a similar fate. We have done far worse than the old man. Heartbreaking stories, lies of sorrow, dreams unrequited, tears of tribulations; that is all we must provide in order for the sweet old one to open his treasure chest. He loves to preach the word of the Lord. Allow him his liberties.”

“I catch him, the appointed minister of a faith I hold not deeply in my heart, looking at me as no proper father observes a daughter. Do not make him out to be so innocent. Every time we call, his leering grows. I expect soon, I will have to sleep with him.”

“Again, the nasty attitude, I have slept with him. It is only sleep he demands and touched with sorrow in his heart, he dreams.”

“He does not touch you? I should have known. The old fool is impotent.”

“I do not care, or know. He holds me, meek and humble. That I do know. Lead this little one from the midst of these goats. He means no harm.”

“He must reek of old age. God, the wretchedness his breath must contain. I get sick just thinking about him. Men are wretched beast. He must snore and grind his teeth, sounding like the devil himself in sleep.”

“I must admit he does stink, yet he slumbers silently. He gives thanks to God.”

“I despise that old fool. I give thanks to God every time we depart from his abode. I love playing him for the fool he is. He makes bold in his claim to be the man of God, yet I offer no solace for his intent.”

“Oh stop. You are wicked Beatrice my child. I know, I was touched in his heart. He gave thanks to God, the last time you allowed him to kiss you goodbye.”

The two young ladies burst into laughter. Seated behind the women, a partition between them, Alberto, continually on guard, listened to the conversation. He assumed the two were prostitutes. The crowd in the tavern was thin. It was early. The majority of Assisi slept late, recovering from the excess of the festival. He nibbled upon bread, slowly sipping his wine, allowing his meal of lamp stew to settle as he waited. There was no sign of Montaninus. The tavern worker, a man previously speaking of Ricco’s deed of killing the bull with some morning drinkers, approached.

Whispering, he spoke, barely missing a step as he passed. “My lord you are requested in the back.”

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A squire witnessing the baptizing of St Francis

Assisi15

Attempting a pompous portrayal of being in the power of the spirit, Pietro guided Ricco, the squire of Man Tower, to the cathedral of Saint Rufino. The destination surprised him, a place of worship possessing memories of enigmatic childish grandeur. In all of his years living in Assisi as a street orphan, he never entered the cathedral. His social status prevented such bravado. He dared not to be so bold. To enter would be a direct insult. Standing upon the steps, wonder enveloped.

Talk of the streets informed him the bell tower remained from the original church. Under construction for fifty years, the present church emerged as a magnificent structure. Romanesque at its base, the upper portion presented the most modern of architecture. Trinity in nature, the circular windows amazed Ricco. He could not determine if the windows made him imagine more: great eyes or wondrous flowers. In the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, he studied, contemplated, the façade of the church often as a waif. The immensity of the structure infused smallness, the individuality of being overshadowed, poverty revealing dwarfing inadequacies, while underneath a longing prevailing, a heartbeat amidst admiring. He could never determine a lasting impression, whether the structure was a work of God or solely the efforts of men.

Pillars of an impressively imposing embossed arch separated the three windows, as well as the separate doors situated amongst the Roman grid pattern of stonework below. The central grand window spawned curiosity as the three figures standing upon strange animals perched upon Roman arches, supporting the mystical rose-window, remained mysterious, mythical in nature, ancient legends bellowing. Ricco imagined them to be angels, however the lack of wings and something sinister defining created suspicion. Possibly, for unknown reasons, they were ancient Roman demons—in allegiance with the monstrous animal forms decorating the exterior north and south walls? Nothing definite, lacking knowledge, mysteries dominating, Ricco recalled spending lengthy moment studying the Cathedral. Often he slept near, hidden in alcoves, feeling protected by the close proximity of holiness.

Above the north and south doors, water drinking leopards and peacocks multiplied ambiguities. Lions, guarding the entrance—one devouring a man, the other a ram, intimidated. Under close scrutiny, sweating under a scorching sun as a boy, he studied the four mounted figures cornering the dominant window. It seemed important to figure out what the figures represented. He determined there was a wolf and lamb underneath, while above a crow and a man stood, holding a book open. He followed respected superstition by avoiding talk of the cryptic figures decorating the cathedral, fearing their power if he was to give them life through spoken words. He knew there were men of great learning, yet never would he be one. Ricco’s instinctual fear of the cathedral coincided with his apprehension regarding God. Like snow covered mountain tops, terror ruled his imagination. The vast dimension of the building surpassed everything he knew as a child; the wealth and means necessary to build such a colossus structure inconceivable. The cathedral only deepened the mystery of life. His feeling of smallness, inconsequentiality, expanded.

Pietro led Ricco inside, sensing the youth’s nervousness, realizing how lost the youth was inside the finely decorated cathedral. He guided Ricco after crossing himself with holy water. The ambience of splendor blinded the squire of Man Tower. He could not establish details. Amidst the sacred artistic sophistication, he felt the diminutive nature of his birth. The existence of the cathedral finery exposed him for what he was. He did not belong in the cathedral. It was for men of better birth. The thought of running away, escaping back to the streets, regressing to the familiar, raced through his mind.

“Relax my young friend. I have brought you to the baptism of my son Giovanni. I want you to see how righteous people of God live. We are the people destined to rule Assisi. It is God’s will. Untruths cannot enter here for this is the home of the Eucharist. Demons hold no sway here. If a possessed woman were to enter, you would hear the words: I command you to come out of her. Find yourself a place in the back and witness, make sure you can see clearly. I want you to observe, to witness, to feel in your heart, and then report to your knight everything you see. Your knight is a stubborn man. I think you are more congenial, better able to compassionately perceive truth. Maybe Man Tower has seen too much war—his heart becoming too hardened. He knows not the way of softness and families. You, in the role of a son, can help replace his heart with a natural heart, a soft heart dedicated to assisting the commune in its virtuous endeavors. Both of you are welcome to fight for goodness.”

Pietro parted from Ricco, joining the others, showing attention to his baby son. Pietro immediately took control of matters. Uncomfortable, Ricco made his way amongst the gathered, making his way to the back, closest to the door. Still, he would not lift his eyes to closely examine the cathedral. He did not notice the tall figure of his master lurking within the shadows. Man Tower prowled, following the intrigue involving his squire. Unaware, Ricco focused his eyes downward.

“Go out from him, thou unclean spirit, and make way for the Holy Spirit, the Paraclete. By my hand Francesco is baptized in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. This sign do thou, accursed devil, never dare to violate.”

The priest having pronounced the words, submerged Pietro’s son in the baptismal font. The carved stone font majestically presented Satan supporting. The basin holding the baptismal water seemingly crashing from above, crushing Satan beneath it. Fiercely, Satan struggled to throw off the devastating weight, the mammoth burden. Proudly, exuding joy for all to see, Pietro stood next to his wife, a beautiful French woman. Another couple, godparents, received the baby from the priest.

Ricco found himself staring at the baby, tunnel vision occurring as he could see nothing but the peaceful face, suckling in its sleep upon nothing. A smile blossomed. His apprehension disappeared, his countenance dissolving. The infant opened his eyes as the priest held him up naked before all the witnessing, a nontraditional act of no explanation. Captivated, the smile would not leave Ricco’s face. He wanted to make his way to the infant, to hold him, to possess the child in his arms and see that face up close. The baby, crying as he was placed in his mother’s arms, looked about. His face turned toward Ricco. A beam of light shot through a window, shining downward, striking the child, reflecting off his body, it went out, into those witnessing. Ricco knew not where the light came from. None of the others noticed. The light stabbed Ricco in the eye, forcing him to erupt with laughter. Others looked at him, marveling the young man would be so moved by a baptism, the opening of the gates of heaven to a newborn. Ricco got up immediately, making for the exit. An indelible mark made upon his memory. The baptized infant cried out after him.

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A Lifetime Occupation

WE want to save our souls and to tend to the perfection of the spiritual life. That is to say, we want to purify ourselves thoroughly, to make progress in all the virtues, to attain to loving union with God, and so in a sense to transform ourselves into Him ever more and more. This is the sole occupation to which we have exclusively consecrated our lives. It is a work of incomparable grandeur, yet also one that involves almost endless toil. It offers us liberty of spirit, peace and joy of heart, and the sweet unction of the Holy Ghost; but, on the other hand, it demands of us sacrifices innumerable and the patient labour of a lifetime. An undertaking so colossal would assuredly be not only difficult but utterly impossible to us, were we left dependent upon our own resources, for it belongs to the purely supernatural order. But “I can do all things in Him Who strengtheneth me ” (Phil. iv, 13). Without God, we are absolutely powerless, unable to do anything at all meritorious of eternal life; as St. Paul says: we cannot of ourselves even think or will what is good, much less bring it to accomplishment (2 Cor. iii, 5; Phil. ii, 13). –Abbot Vital Lehodey.

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Foreign Witness (running fiction)

As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

“Simply, it is an inability to control the passions. The twitching of appetite. Fueled by intemperance, the chained man the locals identify as Legion is helplessly lost to the fires of his desires, an abscess to the universe, privation embodied. Know thy self. Take up and read. He is out of the natural order. A wet soul as we Greeks say, obviously a drunkard, progressively it becomes worse. Only a dry soul can attain wisdom. Look at him thrashing about, a terrible display. There is nothing logical, no mastering of the logos, not even a curiosity of something greater. It is pure barbarianism, a level barely above animalistic. He may as well have fur sprouting from his flesh. Where is the pursuit of virtue, the controlling of fate? Quisque faber suae fortunae.

“Notice the size of the man. Tremendous. He is even taller and stronger than I am, yet he is foreign to his own body, a stranger to himself. A man that size could be powerful in the gymnasium. Understand, training the body is also training the mind, developing discipline, comprehending limitations and then transcendence. One’s abilities to move beyond the accepted. Becoming whole. It is good we came here to watch this man fighting that which we are all born into. My voice has returned and the desert is behind us. Once again, your instincts proved correct my friend Paki. You were invaluable in the sand and heat, and now this experience promises the extraordinary. The journey is Homeric in its extraordinariness, even more than my wanderings into India, although I did not make it to the mountain mysteries of Tibet. There is something to be learned here.”

Paki saw that his companion, the Greek, Timoleon, had returned to his former self. The talker was talking, the snakebite and swollen throat behind him. During the crossing of the Sinai, Timoleon lost his voice from dehydration. Due to dryness, his tongue and throat swelled, restricting his breathing, nearly reaching a point of blockage. Eliminated, his voice became silent. Now he was back to never shutting up, knowing everything, verbally consistently loud.

Paki spoke to Timoleon. “The one the Hebrews in Alexandria are gossiping about is said to be near the Sea of Galilee. His camp is in the town of Capernaum. He is the true reason we come.”

“The one who brings a rebirth through a cleansing in sacred waters? A prophet like those from Hebrew scripture—my latest fascination.”

“No not him. That one baptized in the river Jordan. I did not tell you. One of the travelers informed me the baptizer, as the traveler called him, was named John. He was imprisoned and killed by the local tetrarch Herod, beheaded for the sake of a young woman. The traveler told me the baptizer was strong in words and following. Now the baptizer’s followers follow the one we seek, the one who produces miracles. Jesus of Capernaum he was called.”

“Jesus? I do not recall that name from their writing. Possibly it relates to Joshua, the warrior who would follow Moses, warring the Israelites to their Holy Land. This Jesus is the healer of the sick, the one who enables the blind to see.” Timoleon responded. “I wonder if he is recognized as the messiah they have prophesied about for years? Those Alexandrian Jews speak so much about one who is to come. A king to set the world aright, rumors constantly whispered. Talk of a miracle worker spreads fast. The literature of the Jews is engrossing, defining a God like no others, with the possible exception of Zeus. However Zeus was a God amongst Gods. The God of the Israelites rules solitary.

“Their scripture is truly on the level of Homer, engrossing and fantastic in human drama. Plato and Aristotle defined ethics, the study of right and wrong, proper behavior and responsibility, yet the Jews present such matters divinely through the mouth of their God. It is not a philosopher who speaks, but God, more precise and defining than the Delphi Oracle. The Jews are not men elucidating thoughts; rather they are men recording the words and laws of a Divine One.

“It is unique amongst all that I have read, quite enthralling in content. What a concept. A single God responsible for all creation, a jealous punishing God of righteousness who demands unwavering servitude, seeking to provide guidance for those he created, and yet constantly rebelling. Commandments, vows, consecration and rebellion, a constant falling away after a devastating original falling. It synchronizes so well with so many of my thoughts, and those of other profound thinkers. Man is imperfect, in need of an education. Truth is truth, and these Jews are onto something worth exploring. I feel I am discovering something fresh and new similar to my experiences in India. Although as Plato expresses, nothing is truly new. The most profound teaching is a revealing of that which already exists within us. Revelation is a more appropriate word than attaining”.

Paki was not sure he was happy to hear his companion so versed once again. Circumlocution a mastered art, his talking grew tiresome. Paki responded. “You know I am not familiar with their writing. The healer is why I came to this cursed land. That experience in the desert nearly turned me back, yet it did not. You seem to have recovered.” Paki hesitated, looking off before continuing. “The traveler also told me further news about the healer. Now there is word he has brought one back from the dead.”

“Do not remind me of our time in the desert. It is enough we are here alive. I have lived an extensive life, and nothing compares in tribulation with that accursed sand.”

Timoleon considered the words of his companion, studying him, reflecting upon the desert crossing, noticing Paki was lost to his own thoughts.

“Regarding the resurrecting of one from the dead, I say one thing: impossible, simply folk tales. We all know the common man’s love of lies. He will believe anything. Even the superiorly educated cannot resist a clever twist of the tongue. Factual truth is not so important for the making of popular talk. Resurrection, returning from the dead? Out of the question. If it were possible, we Greeks would have accomplished it years ago. These uncivilized people could never consummate such a thing.”

“It is not the people who claim to do anything. It is their God they give credit to. You should know that. You read their scripture.”

“Well of course. They make claims of their God being the true active God, a God alive in the world, One all powerful, greater than your Egyptian deities. In ancient times, our Greek gods were claimed to be conspicuously active in the world. At least, such things were written, spoken and believed. However, since our time of civilized enlightenment the gods have drawn back, allowing man freedom to rule his own destiny through creativity and intelligence. Belief does not matter. The refinement of the body and soul is my quest. Beauty. So much has been accomplished. Wisdom has been revealed and expanded in so many areas, yet we have never come close to conquering death. Chicanery is most likely the truth behind these tales of bringing one from the dead. Do these Israelites even have an oracle like the one who use to reside in Delphi? I know of their Arc of the Covenant, yet that was destroyed years ago by the Babylonian king Nebuchadnezzar. You spent time amongst them. Tell me what you think.”

“They spoke to me about prophets, and one to come, a messiah who would save their nation, bringing them all together in their holy homeland. You have read their words you know about such talk. They are a closed society, isolating their nation from outside influence. They are difficult to understand as they breed fear and mistrust with the distance they demand. They do not work well with those of different heritage. Neither imitation nor inclusion is a part of their customs. They are a stiff necked people as you say.

“I became intimate with a close-knit community of Jewish musicians. One of them sought me out for assistance in the attaining of a lyre such as I have. I was able to acquire one for him and then I helped him and his son master it, putting it to use in accompaniment to the psalms they sing in praise of their God. They would gather and allow me to partake of their music and song. I have a beautiful voice as you know and they like to hear their sacred words coming from my mouth. I distinctly recall a particular song. The words are quite beautiful. In many ways, reminding me of the poetry you read Timoleon. Paki sang.

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside the still waters,
He restores my soul.
He guides me through the right paths
for his name’s sake.
Although I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I fear no evil,
for you are beside me:
your rod and your staff comfort me.
You spread a table before me
in the presence of my foes.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup is overflowing.
Goodness and kindness will follow me
all the days of my life,
I shall dwell in the house of the Lord
as long as I live.

“It always brings me comfort to sing these words. The sphere of influence of your philosophers has diminished with the ascendancy of Rome. You should be more considerate. Look at my people of Egypt. Time is not kind. Everything is small in the shadow of the wonder my ancestors created; monuments beyond conception. Yet now time moves forward. We have become nothing but the bread basket of Rome. The producer of grain for a foreign master.”

“Excellent with the song. The Israelites know poetry. Its possibilities, beauty, and depth. Their prophets I know. Magnificent words you sing. What we Greeks established can never be conquered. Wisdom is beyond the grasp of military might. We provided intellectual wealth and beauty; the advancement of humankind: civilization; an accumulation through generations, beyond completion, beyond particularism or individualism, an amassing of intellect. Individuals can emerge as harbingers, yet none can embrace totality. In fact, as mysteries exist: submission, humility, and diligence are means for individual glimpses. Mysticism is the par excellence of scholarly efforts. Lets us not forget that Socrates was who he was because he acknowledged his limited facilities. He forsook delusion, the pursuit of the irrelevant, for the sake of the meaningful.

“Wisdom eluded Alexander the Great. Combing the attributes of Achilles and Ulysses, the way of the warrior and cleverness, Alexander dominated the world with might and mind, yet he could not master himself, never able to rise to the rank of king, dying as a conqueror, unable to fill the void within. The Stoics honorably carry on, as do others. An easy mistake on the path of wisdom is the misperception that one’s ways are only true if they are greater than others, wasting vital energy in attack and defense. The mastering is subtle and mistakes can easily sidetrack. Wisdom is entrenched, unwavering, always proceeding, seeking light, desiring to be known, universal and loving.”

“Egypt left physical monuments to be admired. We have discussed your country often enough, and you know my feelings on Rome. Regarding intellect, they are nothing but borrowers, incorporating the ideas, customs, and beliefs of others. Might and engineering is the reason for their rise to supremacy. Politically and practically they are astute, understanding the wisdom of not conquering people, more wisely, bringing them into their nation, establishing relations based upon mutual benefit.

“Through might, Rome has brought peace to the civilized world. Pax Romana. There is much to be admired regarding the rise of Rome. Romans were clever in understanding citizenship as something viable, offering a greater life to those they defeated through Roman citizenship, a constant unifying of city states shall we say. We had our democracy, which was quite revolutionary, yet we never understood the strength of unifying. Us Greeks always warred upon each other. Animosity was the rule between our city states, and never did we envision the conquered as equals, always taking slaves.

“I find it interesting what you say regarding the Jews being isolationists. In Alexandria, people view them with suspicion. Now with Roman domination, the idea of amassing great numbers for validation seems to be the way of power. The mob has learned to rule. Pericles knew the political power of amassing the mob. Others have perpetrated such treason to reason. The future will only bring similar nonsense. I am partial to the words of Heraclitus when he uttered the wisdom: One man in my sight is a match for thirty thousand, but the countless hosts do not make a single one. It takes enlightenment and wisdom to rule, education a must, philosophy combined with real world experience essential. A responsible landowner, one capable in the courts and markets, as well as the arts and ethics, understands the importance of balancing for the greater good. If a governor is one who only knows how to govern, society will pay the debt. When politics becomes an end in itself, a career, good judgment is overshadowed. Professional politicians learn too quickly how to shape the malleable mob. The mob is incapable of seeing past selfishness. The mob’s ignorance promises destruction; implosion and chaos a natural consequence. I am in favor of the elite, well-rounded men in philosophy and business, ruling matters. Augustus is such a man, yet I am not in favor of one man ruling many, for it is inevitable that men of limited abilities, ignorant in everything except politics, will seize power. In the scheme of time, we will see where the rule of an emperor takes Rome.”

Paki saw that Timoleon had unequivocally returned to his former self. He was slightly annoyed, yet he did admire the mind of his companion, absorbing his thoughts.

Timoleon continued. “Back to the Hebrews. It is obvious to intentionally stay aloof as a group is dangerous, a recipe for disaster. Speaking of isolation, your Egypt was a rarity. What allowed Egypt to flourish for so many years is no longer possible in our part of the world. Only from the sea, the Mediterranean, the sea that connects so many terrains, was Egypt open to armies. The sea was always a treacherous place, feared by many cultures, the Israelites being one, and where it met land dangers always existed. Young women know to avoid the coast. With pirates roaming and honest sailors favoring beautiful foreign girls, the coast promised abduction bound for strange lands for a pretty girl. Egypt was a geographical marvel, inaccessibility due to deserts. For armies, the deserts were a border. Oh my friend, how we learned to hate the desert ourselves.”

Timoleon, the Greek, talked on into the night.

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